Sometimes all the love and time you give gets served back to you with a big fuck you . Your not sure how you got here as I stare at my bulldog and wonder why the fuck this happens . But actually this has never happened to me . My exes write me even from years back . Rooting me on . They weren’t the one I never loved them . Excuse my language I might not publish this , but I’m mad maybe not mad but I just feel wasted . God is blessing me . Every prayer like a miracle has been answered I’m not letting tonight make me second guess the path God has been speaking to me about for a year . I’m not crazy it’s not ideas there not in my head . God told me . The enemy tries to hurt me and I’m hurting but there is Gods plan .
Holy cow if I could list the miracles . Sometimes my life is like the three stooges in Spanish and I’m left wondering and scratching my head thinking really ? Did this just happen God ? And why ? I have to follow God’s will . I have to . I have to be a good mom and protect myself as well . God will handle the rest . The Bible says god will perfect what is meant for in our life . So if it’s meant for us God will make it ok . I can’t and don’t have to .
Sometimes things get messed up , but I have to trust God’s will . I’m ending this blog and starting a new one on word press I think it’s called . I’m rewriting my book .
Writing is a healthy way to communicate .im glad I’m loving and giving and say how I feel I’m not crazy or mean or play games . I’m proud of who I am . It’s how I reach 20k readers on my blog and have met my dearest friends . And anyone who loves me would love thst about me it’s who I am . I’m
A writer . It’s not a crutch or a hobby it’s me .
So this may be the last post on this blog .
Carpe Diem
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