Tree House ( List )

 Tree House 

It’s not the same as the razor takes to the sky 

And I zip up the waves say good night 

Place all my memories inside 

I drive . 

Where do I go 

Where you are not behind me 

Where do I go 

Where you are not inside me 

I see you here 

I see you there 

I write you these stupid letters 

And they go no where . 

I’m black I’m white . 

You’re  a burst of light 

Maybe there will be nothing I can never do 

But here you are 

The life in my eyes 

The blood in my heart 

The bones in my hands 

It hurts 

But what can I do 

It’s smoke in the air 

Evaporating 

As my pain sinks into my skin like a hot knife melting over and over again 

But I would do it again just to see your smile . 

My list is a blank page . 

I sit in this tree alone . 

You know I carved our names 

You know you are my home . 

-Amy Everett

Fall

 Well well a new year comes upon us. I’m hoping that all this virus stuff ends after the election I hate how it’s ruining everything. I am an adventurer I love taking my daughter here and there and every where. Farmers markets, museums, hiking

it seems like we have been in this twilight zone all year. Last year seemed like we were all on the up and up all to crash down. We’re in slow motion and kids need to be in school. A study shows children being home causes emotional issues even addictions. I myself gained ten pounds not moving as much as I used to. So here we are. I’m ordering a set on Amazon for only 99 dollars make a cool little gym at the park could be fun . 

Trying to pick up old drams again and put on happy faces for 2021. I going to start a contest prep in 2 weeks that won’t be easy but I need it mentally. It will push me in the right direction. I’ve started school to get my certificate in nutrition and personal training, also nutrition for addicts and marathon running . I want to be diverse in my knowledge. I want to help others win. I love people . I’ve always been in sales to help others but I know I’m meant for more. No one can hold me back in the corporate world when I can own my own business. I’m about to go into some hard training but around March I’ll be a new improved version of myself. 

Still no dating. I want so badly to be married. I been alone for years now. But this is in Gods hands . All I can do is put one foot in front of the other and I feel very alone in my journey but I have to keep pushing. I love woman and I love supporting woman and I think this is going to give me an opportunity to help others. 

Cheers to the rest of 2020