I’m at Barnes and Nobles on my lunch . I came to clear my head . Book stores have a way with me . Today I was told I was hot by my co workers , funny how those words go in one ear and out the other and how we only believe the lies we tell ourselves because according to my head I’m just one invisible girl facing the world alone . I mean my boyfriend even left me with no explanation my love my life does pain get worse than this and I follow the cord deep to the pit of my stomach . Where I find my self worth and I feel sick . How does anyone betray someone on this level? My friend messaged me this morning an old friend who asked me if I was vain I was laughing inside as I mentioned the cord in my head here we go . Vain ? I struggle with my self esteem and just looking in a mirror and blaming my self and my looks for being dumped . As the status quo goes even if this isn’t true I seek refuge in loving myself to rid these negative thoughts it’s called learning to love myself not vanity this guy is an idiot . My journey to self love has made me strong and healthy . I’m sure if my love ever came back he would be healing with an apology and answers . If he does not then it’s not Gods will either way my journey is not about vanity it’s about loving me . And that will make me more loving strong and more happy .
It’s funny I think of his insult . As my friend Cindy at work told me men stare at me I would never notice because I’m not vain and it’s not the attention I’m looking for .
If your on a journey of self love don’t let anyone bring you down keep going
God reminded me today in my prayer time that I walk in his power and love ! Who can hurt me ?
No one . Follow his will and his purpose will happen for good !
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