Thursday, December 25, 2014

Private Life

It's December the years sand is running through my hands . I've fought so hard to not fail , to never fall apart . I have integrity and it's never repaid . I'm running in a maze where life wars with pain . 
Why did he walk away ? Why is there a cyst in my brain ? Why has this year been hard ? I pride myself on having all the answers , you know . I'm pretty smart when it comes to people , but today I have no answers . 
I'm climbing steps that are exhausting only to find myself on top of a ladder . 
I know I just need to pray and have faith . 
It's not a mid life crisis you see , it's just my life , I don't take it to seriously but then again , benchmarks do , 

Where do we go from here as tears stream down my face , writing to an audience wondering if you have ever felt the same . I know I'm not where I'm supposed to be , but I also know I've come so far , I'll get there some day 

4 Squares

There's a note left empty on the back door
I kept the t shirt and my hoodie that is left with your scent 
With all the umbrellas telling their stories in the rain 
I'm left alone in pain 
Your good bye a understated cliche 
And my smile you threw away 

Wednesday, December 24, 2014


The year closes her eyes 
I tell you , the scars are hidden under miles of broken bones and inked arms . 

She ask's me 
How to begin again 
I tell her time heals most wounds 
As I filter out the hooks and jackets 
Ready to set out amoungst  the rain 

As I kiss him good bye one very last time 
As puddles form beneath her feet 
She Braves the storm again 

Monday, December 22, 2014


Archived it says , a thousand secrets 
Inbox flashing empty 

Folders sit under wire rimmed glasses 
Where every smile meets and cars drive by round cemetery track 

Control alt delete 


When I think about it I feel sick and can't sleep ... 

Sunday, December 21, 2014

How to Know A Secret

This is the most real excerpt I will ever write . So pay very close attention . I want to say it because it's the most important life story I learned this year . I have thousands of readers here so I want to spill my guts ... 

This is a rare event I know . 

How do I explain it ? Mmmmm.... This just became difficult . I this year learned what true love is . There were no games , no lies ,  it just was . No worries of intentions , no who text or emails first . 
I'm telling you , listen closer ... 

When you open your heart to someone there is no bull shit . It just is , for good or 
Bad . You dig into each other and listen .  
Best friends ... 

If something is less than this , drop it . 
Period -2014

Saturday, December 20, 2014


Smiles crease empty iris 
Crowds shed light on empty conversations 
Nothing is heard 
Talking with nothing said . 

The wall stands tall 
Holding hands through cracks 
I turn , no one looking back 
A mirror 
Just like that .... Disappears 

Friday, December 19, 2014


There's a lost ship with no sein 
The current breaks her legs and she mourns 
There is no turning back the tide , you see 
No wind to fill the sail 
I'm washed amongst the sand 
Depleting an hour glass through bloody hands 

I watch the stars 
Making the wish one more time 

Tuesday, December 16, 2014


Justice stands in the middle of broken asphalt 
Tied to nothing yet anchored to tragedy 
Puddles stream on night pillows 
As she breathes you in to sleep 
Run to shelter - an empty room 
Locket tucked around my neck 

There's nothing any one can do now 
I can see for miles 
Scraped knees won't heal . 
Street signs pointing north . 

Sunday, December 14, 2014


She rustles through autumn leaves 
Watches them dying - falling to the floor 

Winter sets in , a quiet death 
A violent war - 
Arrows in the chest 
Only one breath left 
The snow is silent 
She can't wake up 

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Black Keys

Body lies in the road 
Flat line and needing a life line 
Her veins black 
Lips red
Snow falls 
Nothing remains 
Stepping through darkness 
Finding light ......

Monday, December 1, 2014


The counter offers my coffee cold 
Eyes lifting from the floor 
Looking to the crowd - strangers turn to water colors , I can't see a single one 

I can't lose the dream . Only lost when I sleep .