Eviction

 I couldn’t recall not loving you 

The way I tell this story so many times 

Like the oceans hands ever changing but the map always remains the same 

My eyes turn grey over the years 

Watching the sunset alone 

Hoping you will return home . 

Your the letter left in the mail 

The answer I’m waiting to come 

Home . 

The days grow long 

I never give up . 

It’s a new dawn . 

I sit here on the ledge of the unknown 

Counting the night as she hides the stars 

So I might not wish any more . 

Love does not die . 

Love does not forget 

I have not forgotten you . - Amy Everett

How To Date

 Last year I was going to start a business for men on how to date and how to get any girl they wish. Due to work I never finished my online project so here are tips that will work 100% of the time. 

1. Put forth effort. Find out what she likes and do those things

It shows you are interested in who she really is as a person. Woman get hit on all the time for sex. ALL the live long day but what man takes the effort to listen, do research and act. 

Also - putting in effort does not mean we want your money exc we just want to know like hey I’m special and your serious. 

2.Never ever talk about sex. Until you’ve completed number 1 so good she is begging to give it to you. If you do number 1 above you won’t have to ask . 

3.when you compliment her do not make it sexual until you have reached number 2. But still follow this rule always. Use emotional compliments ! Woman are not men. For example man you have a nice laugh, you have a beautiful smile or you are pretty or you seem like a strong woman . 

4.If a girl feels like you are serious she will stop her day to talk to you or see you. If she does not you did not complete acts 1-3. And you need to go through these again 

5. If you can careless about this don’t waste a woman’s time or your own because someone else will come and do these steps and she won’t talk to you anymore. Also if you don’t care go find a one night stand at a bar with no morals 

So their you go you are welcome 

Ropes -Repost

 Ropes . 

If I’m the cause why am I alone 

The train station is empty 

It’s half past the time and I’m left here 

I’m wearing your sweat shirt 

Time is paused as life keeps pushing forward . 

I’m stuck here in the shade of this good bye 

It’s raining under these eyes 

Black is the day 

Black is the night . 

I wasn’t born to live this way 

I deserve to have someone by my side 

I’m here alone writing these rhymes 

I dream of another kind of life 

I won’t stand here paralyzed 

Not for long 

You get my drift 

I bought my ticket 

Not sure when the next train is comin 

You had so many chances 

I don’t deserve a life like this 

I know you know this 

I know as you read this 

We all make our choices 

One pill 

One bottle 

And I 

Packed my bags 

It’s way past the time between where I will go and where I been . 

Maybe we can love and let go . 

Maybe you can fight a little harder 

But I shouldn’t be the one writing this 

It’s all on the table 

Every morning I pray over and over 

I’m paused as life pushes us forward 

But I bought my ticket 

Time is a ticking 

Isn’t it 

As hearts are breaking 

I deserve more then this 

-Amy Everett

Center Of The World

 It’s Thursday night, as I listen to Taylor Swifts new song Exile it fits me and I put it on repeat as I struggle to write this blog. I watched the movie I think it’s called I can only imagine. Forgive my mistakes and errors tonight in punctuations and such. Any way this movie gave me hope my ex would find Jesus and be healed and come back all better just like the movie. I thought if I prayed every moment had faith , it would happen. 

I been single for over a year and he never came back. I’m writing this blog about Gods plan. It’s much bigger than my ex. In his passing( not in death ) but my life. I learned that God has a plan , even though I was clutching my very own plan for dear life I realized I was not God( obviously ) I’m no healer.  So here we are learning. Learning is more then faith in our own plans it’s having faith in Gods plan. Super scary. 

This means new job maybe or new whatever it is for you it could just mean healing and that’s what it meant for me. 

Also trusting my Lord with my life and most importantly my heart. Now my prayers are different. They go something like please just show me the way. 

I still pray for my ex every day for him to find Jesus but I also pray for Gods will. In this I’ve been healed from so much pain.