Change

As I sit here on my lunch break at Barnes and Noble , I realize my life has settled into a routine and it’s boring and it’s all so self healing I’m ok with that . I eat the same things every day, go to the gym and work, and tend to my daughter. Occasionally I see Malia and Troy not as often as I would like to. As I navigate into my new world , my new job, new body I’m designing a path where I’m alone. It’s not the alone part that gets me, it’s the I always thought we would be together planning Halloween and trip for Thanksgiving.  I’m adapting like a child falls on concrete off there new bike. 

I went to lunch Monday with a very old friend who prayed for me , he said,” heal Amy, one day at a time.”That’s all I can do is have faith one day at a time. 

God reminded me on my drive home last night as I became sad that he was indeed in control. To follow his truth and his light 

To continue my trust in him and to not be afraid. I thought yes, I’m doing my best. 

I’m proud of the woman I’m becoming emotionally. I’ve grown as a person inside and out. I have peace about this. 

It will be alright.