Last Night

She prayed - 

Jesus bring him back with flowers and a ring so he Marries my mama . She prays that he will be fixed and come home . 

It’s a solitude of hell 

A smile that’s a bold face lie 

Facing the crowd 

I’m no brave face 

Not even good at hiding 

They know I’m not ok . 

There’s anger in my heart 

There’s pain . 

With out you 

I’m lost In this room 

Sullen eyes . 

They say I’m beautiful 

As I hide behind this mask 

What did I do to make him go 

They say he does not deserve you 

I can’t let him go . 

There’s a battle in this storm 

Nothing is alright 

I remember your smile 

That night 

Like an arrow in my heart 

Can’t be removed . 

I walk in the fog 

One step in front of the other 

Blind 

Asking god to guide me . 

Nothing is alright 

They say things get better with time 

I say it’s a lie . 

But what can I do . 

Except fake this smile .