It Happened First Time

For the first time in my life I had to love someone enough to let them go so they can focus on themselves . Loving someone more than my own needs more than my fears has been difficult 

But that’s real love . Real love is not co dependent it’s letting someone get what they need . The scary part is what if they never come back ? The reeling questions that keep me up at night and crying every day in my car . 

Missing everything comes with that too . I miss you . I think in this terrible journey that has tested my strength and bravery I’ve learned what love could be and love I can give . 

Hopefully giving it to God , you come back to us . I’m working to be the best person I can be . It’s all I can do to keep my mind off you being gone . 

Just know that I love you .