Time

It’s 6 am on a Saturday I have to get up for work. Raigan is asleep next me , the dog is snoring and I wish I didn’t have to go today . I’m laying here thinking about time . I’m thinking about how I have 4 minutes to rest . Everything in life is bound by time . Just like love . People will say Amy there are so many fish in the sea why do you make yourself beautiful but go home every day and cry . It’s easy answer because of time . What makes love unique is the memories we shared with someone they are ours and we can’t have them with someone else . Why would I want someone else . That’s how I know I deeply loved. This person . Another thing about time is we can have a million memories but they can scar you for life in one moment one action by breaking your heart . By just not caring about you like you did for them . Even though they said they did . So what takes a life time of love can take a moment to cause the worst heart break .

I’m 40. I thought I knew who my soul mate was so much I’d bet my life on it . But in reality they would’ve respected and cared for me enough not to cause so much pain over and over and over .

Yes I may cry every day . I don’t know what time will do now . But god is in control .