Valentines

Since google is deleting all blog post on April 4th I’ll write until my blog is gone as well as everyone else with a blog . Valentines Day was never anything important to me any year I believe you should always be loving every day . It’s a gimmick we all know this . I think the part I hate is my loving friends with good intentions feel bad I’m single . I’m here to say it’s my choice trust me I need to be healing and it’s really not Gods timing right now. Last Valentines my love now ex love just completed a stint in rehab and he dropped of roses from a near by gas station I’m no snob trust me but I just knew something was wrong . Indeed he was using again and I knew him pretty well let’s just say I spent my Valentines alone in tears . I realize at 40 I made my own mistakes but I also need to heal from them . We don’t know all the time who we are going to love or the issues they will have but now I know what I need to heal in me . I definitely would love to be married and I have a sadness when I see couples shopping every day at work but it’s not my time and I’m very ok with that

I’m waiting on God. So for anyone alone on Valentines chin up .