At 40 my life is so boring because I’m working my ass off to become what I’ve always dreamed of becoming. I don’t get to sit at home and be lazy and not work but that’s never been me. I strive to be my very best all the time. I work 14 hour days I go to the gym on my lunch I walk all day I work hard I’m to tired to go out and any extra time I have is to be with my daughter . There is no white horse to come save me I have to do it myself . Unfortunately I’m single and the one I loved didn’t work out so my blinders are on and I’m focused . I’m pretty blessed though through all the pain every single person around me I’m touched with love and friendship and that is a blessing . I see God working through my hard days I just pray there not always so hard always bad luck. I hurt so much inside but I spend so much time in prayer . I know I’ve come through the desert . I’m tired of friends trying to set me up I know they have good intentions but I’m emotionally just done I’m so heart broken I am just waiting on God for this time of healing and restoration amen .
The world is a cold place . People are aweful for no reason they have no God because God is love . If someone does not treat you with love they are not with God period .
Sometimes with my heart issues I think how long do I even have to live I cherish my daughter every moment .
Gotta love big while we’re here . Ignore the crazy people there not worth it . People are sad and jealous . Pray for them . All we can do is have faith and keep moving forward .
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