I’m Not The Only One

I think about him every day. Did he just take advantage of me? He had to of.No one uses and lies to someone to such a degree with no remorse it’s not humanly possible then comes and goes with no conscience it’s almost a level or crazy. I loved the version of this person I thought was real but he sold me some lie . If it was real he would’ve got help but he didn’t . He abused me he knew I loved him more then life he never even apologized . Me a normal loving human can’t rationalize the thought process of a sick person I try every damn day to let it go I have to . I pray to . I think there is a healing process when you go through this process with an addict of such magnitude I never want anyone to come close to my heart ever again . I hide away my pain . I pray constantly . Maybe one day I’ll be in a place to help others but I am blessed to where even in sorrow I’ve found joy in daily things . In time maybe I’ll get Amy back . I think of him we had so many times together maybe those moments were real . Now there dead . But I’m just having faith for my future . Right now I’m just doing things that don’t necessarily use the heart like work hard at my job or my diet . But healing is something people need to take the time to do . Find the anchor in Christ . Not around your neck .

It’s friday night I need to go to the gym . Accomplish more goals !!! And remember I’m not alone