it’s just a list

It’s Wednesday it’s raining and I’m on my lunch. Where would I rather be you ask. In Paris and in love laughing and traveling not in this parking lot so maybe I’ll put it on my bucket list . I once made a bucket list I did everything on it except go to England it was my number 1 thing . I was so impressed I finished my bucket list I wondered if I might die soon but I’m still here but there are things I’ve never had. A. Have someone love me B. Be proposed to. I’m 40 it seems like I’ve lost out on those things for good . I can’t say I’m ok with it . But there isn’t snyhing I can do about it either so maybe I’ll fly myself to Paris and England and by myself a ring . Ah eff it right. At least I love myself enough to not be with a loser asshole . So here I am in a parking lot on my lunch writing bucket list in the rain . So in the mean time I can’t give on myself because you guys will see me make it come true . Right now I’m going to drink some tea instead . Chow