The Way It Goes -2019

I sit here outside of work I’m always early. This month I should do a 100k maybe my best month yet I’m on track to do all I want to do as far as my goals but if I’m being honest I’m so hard on myself I feel really fat still even though I’ve literally lost half a foot in inches alone off my waist in 5 months. I still feel like I’m no where close. But that’s just me. I’ve hit every goal I set out I keep pushing harder and I’m tired. I need a vacation or a break. I think I’m just still sad. I think no
Matter what I just need to trust in God’s plan for me no matter what it is. I need to learn it’s going to be alright . I’m still grieving . It’s a process. I’m doing good other wise . I’m smart I’ve become wise and staying the course has been good for me. I plan on doing this through the holidays staying single and still focused on my goals . Revisit for 2019 will be moving . That’s next on the list .