The Contents of Lack

The words ring loud as my son tells me mom you just love shitty people as he hangs up the phone. It’s Saturday morning I’m an hour early for work so I’m writing what I’ve been thinking all week. It’s not about loving shitty people. I watched a video a few nights ago about being attracted to situations that are in lack. So you are dating this hot guy and it’s great and all the sudden they are lacking in attention or they are emotionally abusive or whatever the case is you should leave the situation immediately because nothing about this person or situation should be attractive to you. You stay with lack. You long for it to change thru say they love you, but love is not lack or longing. 

What is it in me that is attracted to the situation of lack. I stayed in lack. I loved someone and still do in lack. But I will never be in a situation again in lack. Be it him or anyone I realize now what love means and it’s healthy and what healthy is I’m no longer wanting lack. Crowd please applaud. I thought I lacked in beauty in everything I didn’t see my own value. So I let myself become a door mat. 

Who could respect this? I’m one to be respected because I’m not lack? My friend told me I could chew someone up and spit them out.I loved that! Because I’m no longer lack. I do believe God can change lives and paths I would be lying if I didn’t say I didn’t pray this for my ex every day. But today and In my future I’m not lack. 

I’m writing this to encourage you to not desire lack. I’m not dating because I need to heal all the wounds that caused me to be in lack. I don’t care what people think God has me in a holding place of healing. 

It’s more important to heal and become whole and to learn my value then to ever fall into lack again. I hope this may of helped anyone out there!!!!!! 

Love is appreciation , truth , loyalty , honor , not lack . 

Remember this . You shouldn’t have to long for someone to be those things that’s lack. We are valuable and deserve love.