Dear 2018

As I listen to Breathe by NF I decided to write 2018 a letter. This year I’ve had the most bad things happen in one year. I’m not playing victim this isn’t what this blog is about but if anyone knows me they know, I’m capable of standing my own ground. The year begun with a new job new boyfriend and I got laid off and I lost everything I worked hard for even my car and my good credit. My boyfriend was there for me but I was a mess a deep depression. I found another job but it was alright.
As we moved through the year to make story’s short I lost my boyfriend I thought I was going to marry he left me for someone else . My dog died the same week, this year I spent in the hospital so many times for my heart thought it was the end having a heart attack.

My friend died of an over dose not one of them but three . And I hired a trainer he pretended to be 28 he was only 22. I tried to wonder can anything go right ? Months have gone by there’s not a day that’s gone by I have not cried. People wonder why I don’t go out and date or party I wonder how I even smile .

I decided though I wouldn’t go out like this I’m no victim. My little girl looks up to me. She can’t see me give up and so many times I just didn’t want to live anymore I couldnt go on.

I decided I’m a warrior I was going to be the best yet . 2018 had me drowning but not dead. I got a new great job. Changed my body and my mind . I’m letting God heal me. They can say my life is boring but I’ll go into 2019 with God’s power and peace.

I’ll forgive all those who hurt me. Work through my grieving, never ever give up because there’s a hope in 2019. There may be the pain and dissapointment of yesterday but with God I have the hope in tomorrow no matter how much goes wrong .

So as we end this year I’ll go out fighting, crushing every goal I ever started . Nothing can stop me