Walking On Water

It’s Monday morning , I been thinking this whole week about this blog topic .

I really need to share this with you . 

Recently very recently about a month ago I found myself driving in my car , tears streaming down my face wondering how was I going to make it another day . There was not an ounce of light in the dark world I was in and nothing could make it better . I knew there were others out there like me but who were they . Hiding behind false smiles in large crowds . That was me as well . I realized this is how suicide happens . Your so alone in a world where you been betrayed and with held from all love . Your a walking dead person . 

No one knew I held my sadness in . No one knew what I had gone through . This war. This Great War . I was deposited back into life by the gutter of this world . I knew I didn’t deserve that . 

So here I am today . I’ll tell you the answer to finding the light to whatever war you are in . Waking through fire or sinking in sand I found the answer . 

As I looked ahead at my sorrow and prayed for help I knew I just needed to look to God . But it was not taking the pain away . I was still drowning . I begged God , how ? 

First he said look at me . 

It didn’t make sense at first . Because I thought I was . But my focus was on the storm and how it was destroying me . 

I turned my focus to God for him to have the storm and I simply walked away from it . 

Burdens I’m not intended to bear . God is now driving this car . What’s intended for me will be Gods purpose and faith and trust walk in . 

Next this is a big one . Forgiveness - 

This concept was hard for me . To see people from Gods eyes not ours . So I had to forgive . Wow it’s getting easier already . 

Next - love . Love covers a multitude of sins right ? Love . With Gods love . Not yours . 

Do I still cry in my car , sure . But it’s grief . And I’m ok . There’s a peace in the storm . My boat is no longer sinking 

And I’m in God’s command .