U turns

Exit door lights up 

Seems like it's revolving 

I'm sitting at the other end wondering 

How explanations turn into thoughts 

Into written words 

Into blank messages 

Faith has me here 

In every window 

Every song 

Losing you best is trying 

To find you again 

Letting go 

Holding on 

All over again 

Crayons

I wrote you a letter today 

Like a coloring book 

Inside and outside the lines I drew 

I crushed the paper a hundred times 

I couldn't quite get the message through 

I knew in your silence 

What you were going through 

The crayons are laying on the floor 

Music streams at midnight 

Not sure where the time went 

But I knew 

I'm left here crumbling paper 

Can't say I'm surprised 

Tried to catch you before midnight 

Before you hid your final good bye 

Under the mat where keys go that wer'e meant to find . 

You know what I mean don't you ?

You knew I had it figured from the beginning 

Should've stayed 

I'm the finish line you see 

Now I'm here left with paper 

Crumbling 

With endings and new beginnings 

38

I write best when I'm not thinking 

Heart guides me best as I'm driving 

Whatever she tells me is the truth 

It's always the truth between you and me 

My voice is all I have 

You will only know me if your listening 

I love deeply but love rarely 

Love never comes easy 

Success only comes when you believe in yourself 

Believing is integrity 

I have a handful of friends but boy 

Do they mean everything 

And to them I'm everything 

They hear me . 

I'm 38 tomorrow 

This past year I've learned to listen to people from the inside 

Things are not black and white 

We live once take nothing for granted 

Let no one take you for granted 

And never let go of love . 

Because true love comes back . 

And most of all make everything count and never do anything you may regret 

Cheers to another year 

Light Houses

Phones type out blank messages 

Neon lights fade into a sunset 

As I drive tonight 

Shadows pasted perfect to the music 

Never fading never staying 

The rocks seem more like empty waves 

I can't stand on a grave 

Sail the seas I say 

Anchors remind me of the light 

Broken on the hill - 

Searching for calm 

Finding only the storm 

I never wanted to be the hero 

Just didn't want to get lost amongst the waves 

The distance is fading faster 

As I read the news paper 

Bets are in 

All or nothing he said 

As I sail alone 

With ghost from home 

Paintings

Contemplate finger prints 

Left on coffee tables 

I watch the crows spread there wings 

Leaving a winter behind 

I am the sunshine 

If you rinse the Braille I left on your heart 

Then friendships aren't made to last 

There's a foggy rainbow 

Telling you , your stories 

Sitting here alone 

With your brush strokes 

I can't remember what you said 

I'm just left with a picture 

Don't let it burn in my hands 

Contemplating finger prints 

Left on glass tables 

Afraid of the coming 

Afraid of the going 

I am the sun shine 

Left with this picture 

Left in your hands 

Spells

Cast a shadow in the well 

Change falls from this pocket 

Wishes fall on empty stars 

Funerals line broken dreams 

With the courage to take a hand 

Sitting still - I'm gonna stand 

I hear you in the distance 

Voices lost on old pages 

Half written ,holding on to every letter 

That was never addressed . 

Lockets separate, 

Golden clasp 

I see you in the window 

Calling my name 

I can't reach you there 

You can't reach me  

Black

Leather panties crawl on the floor 

The devil smiles 

Red harmony typed out 

Calculated hunt , 

Guns drawn at the silver gate 

Betting is it heaven or hell 

Whisper my name 

As I scream 

Love dies in black rose lenses 

Reborn at midnight 

When we have fallen 

Take place 

At the starting line 

Return to my bed 

Can't imagine you out of my head 

Gun re loaded 

Tell me again 

I'm what you always needed 

Like a cigarette

Like a needle dripping heroine 

Carbon

I drive through empty tunnels 

Wind passes through broken spaces 

A hundred hands grab my fingers 

I turn the music up 

Sing the last song I can remember 

The review mirror stays the same 

Funny the way things change 

Funny the way they stay the same 

A hundred hands slipping through 

None holding me 

The miles begin to look the same 

On this drive tonight 

If the Braille was written on your wall 

Could you read it 

And I pass through a crowded room 

Looking for you 

Do you see me 

Fingers touching 

Moving

Telegraphs written gone unread 

A Lonley love song lost in smoke 

A conversation between two now one 

Tell me how does the story end 

You said you figured it best 

I figured I'd wait a little longer 

Little girls always have dreams of castles 

And you were the hero 

If I say good bye today 

If I put a stamp on this letter 

Would I fold your cape and put it away for later 

I sit now in our sunset 

Folding envelope 

Tired of all the nights alone 

Maybe love never dies 

But I can't fight alone . 

So I walk down the path 

The numbers on the house they fall 

One by one 

Eyes black - tears fall 

But you figured it best 

As I drop this letter in the mail 

I'm guessing 

There will be 

No answer 

Sure Things

I can't do it 

I draw words out 

Like spilled paint 

That never dries 

It is you standing there at the edge of every breath I take 

I fight every moment 

But you are there - 

Knocking on every door - 

I look to the sky 

On every night drive 

The Stars guide me home 

Tell me not to forget in faith tonight 

I feel you at home inside my eyes 

Sitting looking out 

I know you want what's best for me 

But you were what made me best 

You see 

Concrete Footprints

Spine falls flat into open wounds 

I call out into the darkness 

Nothing speaking back to me 

Converse untied 

Cold winds and a lost regret 

I can't think of anything else 

I saw you last night 

In a dream 

I saw you in the song I heard on the radio 

Life is fleeting into faded heart beats 

Riding this dream alone 

You tell me to let you go