The Big Clock

It’s about 7 am it’s Friday . I’m tired of the virus , the riots and all the craziness outside my window. It’s changed my world this year but not for the worst so far but for the better 

I try to stay positive in these times. Try to look at the glass half full seems cliche but it’s true. It’s 2020 I’m 42. I haven’t dated in almost 2 years because of a really bad break up but what this time has given me is time to reflect and time with my daughter . I was working morning noon and night , commuting hours on the freeway, managing stress from work bullies and the stress to perform on top of that I had no time to heal to see where I was at . 

I’ve come full circle . I wonder if I’m ready to date . In my mind I’m fine by myself . I couldn’t bear the heart ache again but then I think what would I be looking for . Then I think about him . I realize I haven’t let him go . I’m ok with healing process . 

All I know is I’m just fine with living in the moment and being a mom and trying to find a job I love where I can actually inspire people not just sell people on who I am and what I’m selling to make a living , I want to make a difference . This is my time . I feel like things need to happen I’m at the final destination of where it needs to fall into place and I’ve done my fare share of falling. 

I urge everyone to look within today instead of the news or outside chaos. Be your best authentic self or create it !