Hospital

It started a week ago. I noticed my heart wasn’t recovering after my runs as usual, my heart wasn’t feeling well I wasn’t sleeping, My heart hadn’t been giving me to bad of issues like this in a while, What was going on I thought. I started drinking more water, today I wasn’t feeling good still I only ran half my normal time. I took my heart medicine to keep my heart rate stable, this always does the trick, things have been stressful this week I’m close to getting In the million dollar club at work and I’m relying on a busy Black Friday weekend to get me there. I had to sell my 800 dollar Tiffany ring to a man online for a 100 bucks to pay bills things have been hard so getting sales will get us back on top. When I sold the ring I was Leary I sent it with proof of signature to avoid scam. The man still claimed the ring was not there this was yesterday. Then tonight my daughter called crying homesick she’s on vacation in Colorado with her dad. Her dad text me that he saw what was really going on? Like that made sense she’s a sad homesick girl. He’s harassing me because she wants to be home:

More stress. As the stress piles on this was the first thanksgiving with out Jerry. My ex. Even though I did the very best thing having him out of my life you know it’s still hard.

So here we are 1 am I wake up to severe chest pain and a heart rate of 158. Am I going to die I thought. Why are people so evil I thought as I waited for the ambulance. I do the right thing every day but that will never stop bad from happening right.

Then as I waited I honestly thought I might die my chest hurt so bad I remembered God told me last week in prayer to not be afraid that he was with me, as the ambulance arrived they checked my heart found something wrong I forget the term it was pouring rain they rushed to me to the hospital and gave me medicine,

As I sat in the hospital the doctor asked do you have stress? How could I answer that? I’m like nah just regular stress. They saw my heart issues but it was not a heart attack thank God because I need to work Black Friday in 4 hours.

So here I am writing this blog. Thankful to be alive. And to say love each other today life is rough.