Death Bed

The holes are vast like a net 

Water falling never catching 

Like the pain 

It seethes in red like fire 

Burning forest and it’s victims 

As I stand here naked 

I am invisible 

Withering away 

Do you know this pain ? 

Can’t be erased by one lined 

Apology . 

No regrets no harm done he says 

As I rock myself to sleep in a silent room 

I erase the vomit filled memories 

They cut me like small razors 

Filling each hole with alcohol 

And I scream in silence 

No ambulance can carry me to my healing 

And I’m sorry I didn’t want to bother you with all of this . 

I just wanted you to see with your own eyes 

What I feel below the surface 

And how can you look at me in the face and say absolutely nothing of all of this 

You laugh tell me I’m trippin

How can I think you don’t love me ? 

And the tide pulls me farther under neath 

And you look at me with a blank stare 

And as long as I’m brave and I tell you it’s alright , your ok . Your ok to use me 

And you call this love ? 

Do you hear me 

Do you hear me 

As I’m sinking 

Do you see me standing here naked and bleeding 

Knifes in my back 

And you hand me a one line apology 

And you see me 

And say nothing 

As they drive me to my own funeral 

You smile and say everything is alright 

As I wither away 

You say I love you