Kalidescope Letter

I see you from the corner of my eye 

I'm displaced in this shadow 

I'm choking on reason 

Living on memory 

Tell me 

Marry me 

Marry me 

As broken fingers get ready for the fall 

Tell me 

Stay with me 

Stay with me 

I don't regret this at all 

I can fight in these songs 

My insides 

Where you live 

You are my blood 

Coursing through this heart 

There is nothing 

To bring you back 

I stand here in the rain 

Singing you songs 

It's cold 

I miss your warm 

It's the death of me 

And I'm ok 

Tell me 

Speak to me 

Speak to me 

I hear you from a thousand miles 

I write in the sand 

Falling from hour glass 

Every moment alone 

There not you 

Thank you 

Broken fingers holding on 

Tell me 

You loved me 

You loved me 

I'm in the rain 

No regret 

Gypsy

There was a moment 

Swallowed in blankets 

Fighting an ocean of tears 

Listening to your words 

Slowly drowning me 

It was that night 

I fell apart 

When I needed you to be the one to fall 

Hand me a cigar 

I'll quietly miss you 

As I drive alone in my car 

If I could push rewind 

Could I change that night 

Maybe you just needed convincing 

I'm not hard to love 

Left with candles and stale cake 

What do I do with this 

I knew you were mine from beginning to end 

I'm no beggar 

When I write these letters 

I wanted you to stay 

Because you wanted too 

But I never fall 

But I did that night 

As you slammed the door 

Now I'm left 

Full of reminders 

Of what I'm looking for 

Panic.

Can you be the shelter 

In my storms - 

Calmly sitting patiently 

I ask you 

Does the crow keep you warm 

Night shifts into a melody 

You hummm secretly 

And I begin to fade into the darkness 

How do I keep your light 

She wondered 

Jupiter

Clean my eyes 

Dilated 

Coveting the picture frame 

Empty glass 

Burning in my fingers 

Bruising my neck 

I lost sleep 

A vacuum of what I used to be 

Confined in this place 

I feel you waking 

Lost and sleeping 

Invisible i am 

Stitched in time 

Metal lense blinds you 

I am black leather handcuffs 

Batting eye lash in temporary libraries 

Filed and put away 

Feel me in the morning 

Under blankets wet 

Picture frames broken 

You wouldn't ever know 

She's a mess 

Blue Prints

Frames sit steady on the shore 

Empty spaces fill today 

Architect hands placed firmly 

Around 

Your eyes 

Reaching deep inside 

Held with so many regrets 

Pacing fast 

With one last breath 

Catch me if you can 

House sits 

Empty 

Blue print hands 

I have the paper 

I have the pen 

Let me burn old pages 

Bonnie and Clyde she said 

Telegraphs

Come tell me how it goes 

The way stories never seem to end 

The way we write them in our heads 

They told me something different 

As a little girl 

I wore a white dress 

Did what I was told 

There's a hundred monsters 

I'm left lacking 

A hundred broken 

Am I breaking 

Or are you out spoken 

A cowards tale is un forgiven 

Like the monsters 

Hiding under my bed 

Below all the victories 

I stand with pride 

So tell me why 

I'm braver than the hero who saved me 

I sit here asking why 

Wondering what you ask yourself 

At night 

Axis

The record shatters against 

All I have faith in 

I don't believe she lies 

I toss medal jacks like marbles 

There's clouds dressing the sky 

Like an open wound 

Counting time 

What can I do . 

I'll run 

To re write but never be undone 

Like needle and the thread 

I won . In the moment 

I found my army 

When you held me 

The day I was a warrior 

Even when I transpired your ghost 

As I let go 

Faith prays 

For you to find me 

Counting clouds one by one