Question

 It’s 1 am and I’m having a seizure. Seizures are scary and I’m alone . My daughter asleep in the next room . I just pray I’m ok every time. I hear people complain all the time but no one knows what it’s like to be a single mom and depend on myself , no one knows the fear I carry . 

I also sometimes have seizures and I’ll be at the hospital all night then I have to go to work to make sure I pay my bills . If it’s slow at work I can’t . 

I don’t have another income or a spouse . I don’t have credit cards I can fall back on . I’m 46 and tired . 

I have to be strong ALL of the time because there is no one to be strong for me . I have to always be ok even if I’m not because my daughter needs me . 

It’s 1 am right now , I’m sick with a cold plus I had a seizure and I have to work in the morning . 

I just pray for change , pray for healing . God is all I have to save me .