Burdens

 Satan really attacked me this past few weeks. Is that because a blessing is coming , I had a fallout with a friend that ultimately ended a friendship if you know me you know how forgiving I am so you can guess it was pretty bad . I was scammed out of every single penny I had saved for my Hawaii trip, food and bills. 

I was heavily disappointed by other things. I spent my day off praying out loud in my house. 

I am trusting in God to help me with my enemies, to help me get money I leave Monday and to just answer the questions that have been left undone . It’s a big leap of faith and positivity on my part . 

But really it’s all I have is Jesus . There’s nothing else 

Here I am on my knees waiting on you Lord in all this confusion and war may I keep the peace as you fight these battles and see me through 

Waiting

 

I’m 45, I’ve never had a wedding I never had a ring , I’ve been in the deepest love that brought me to the deepest parts of the ocean I almost drowned there . 

I know what it is to give all that I am for someone I also know that love isn’t always enough. I know that God has to come first , God has taught me so many lessons and I left everything to follow him I call it walking on water in faith 

God saved my life. I been single 6 years. I don’t want a 1 night stand I don’t want to date for fun, I want to date with a purpose . 

I never want to find myself in the ocean again. I’m waiting on God for the right person. About 3 weeks ago God pressed upon my heart that it would be soon. I can wait it will be worth it . God is first . 

I’ve always been an orphan to love,God taught me what true love looked like . 

When it comes it won’t be confusing 

I’ll know , I prayed for a specific sign 

I’m focused on Gods will sharing his word with the homeless and the lost 

Until then maybe soon he will send me the one.

Deep Waters

 I don’t have the answers . I just know I have to trust in God he has taught me that his plan is better and it’s bigger 

He has saved me from hell he saved me from death he freed me from myself and un forgiveness . 

Battles come where the waters are deep but he is the air I breathe . I wish I could get married but I have to wait on God for that too , God is my first love.

I I feel like I’m getting older and weary sometimes I think 

How much longer do I have to wait , but God said to remember Job’s story . I know it’s worth waiting on him . 

Thank you Lord for my blessings , thank you lord for saving me , saving me from myself .