Direction

Direction

This is the time
When you think the light is shining
But yet it’s dark
And I’m all alone
But it’s the time
When I will push myself beyond the blurred lines .
How far can I go
Emotionally
How far can we get God it’s just you
And me .
How far can we take it running in the gym
Where can we push this physically
I’m not going to sleep on me

Maybe as I gather my bridges
As I write these lines
I don’t need anyone to condone this
Because I’m here to push this

To see where I can take it
Walk the path less taken
Heal this heart that’s been broken

Here I am God it’s me and it’s you
No ones pointing any fingers

We reap what we are sowin.

So let’s grasp this .
And change direction . - Amy Everett

Arrested

I remember the music we shared 

As you folded your laundry years ago 

I remember the lazy days we spent under the covers with nothin else to do 

But us me n you . 

You want to remember the bruises time left on our pillows leaving our beds wet 

But what I remember is the years of your fingerprints left on my skin

The kind you can’t remove when wet . 

Layers of time 

Painted on my soul 

Framed soul mate . 

It tells a tale 

From then 

To now . 

I remember watching you sleep 

I remember you saying good bye . 

I remember never letting you go . 

There’s a hallway in my eyes 

The world I see is you and me . 

It’s all I see . 

Never complete . 

I’ll sit here in this circle we call home

Waiting for the lights to come on . 

Sitting on this door step . 

Well well

Mark 11:24

For whatever you ask for in prayer you shall receive .


Well God will grant our prayers if we don’t have unforgiveness in our hearts and we have no sin so I have to ask for forgiveness seek him with all my heart and ask for things in his will . So my prayer life has gotten very very serious . So I been writing my prayers out . And on top of this it’s been holding me accountable to love my enemies, to forgive wrong doers and to be a good doer myself God is love and I have to reflect who God is . This means in my prayer time checking myself in order to ask for my own needs . This is where I’m at .

Hope

Letting go : 

Do we ever really let go of our soul mate? I think life can be tragic and maybe God is teaching us and maybe all we have is faith and I’m emotionally drained from letting go of the love of my life but is it letting go or just a pause in time . I know he isn’t on the path to be ready for a relationship and maybe he will someday but maybe he won’t only God has those answers . What I do know is that I can’t control it I can’t save it . All I can do is pray and keep my eyes focused up on Christ not ahead or behind me . It’s ok to love it’s ok to let go if it’s not healthy . But never give up hope 

Love and Losses

Life is messy so is love why can’t it be black and white? Why can’t we just have the one we love the one we fight for ? When you have them , they seem to slip through our fingers like sand and there’s nothing we can do . Nothing happens on accident . God has his permission on the bad and the good . But what is bad ? And if we have a teachable spirit we are more grounded but it still leaves me sad . 

I can ask why all day but I can’t change a thing. All I can do is pray for my loved one and have faith in my future that God knows best in everything even his timing . 

When I’m left wondering why I’m also left thanking God for a lesson in faith and salvation. I am Job he said . Job lost it all and in faith gained it back . I have to hope in God and keep going and honestly I’m emotionally exhausted . God renew my spirit . I’m a nice person . I try to give my whole heart I would give anything but sometimes love isn’t enough I can’t save anyone only God can . 

I pray for continual healing and a calm spirit . To remain in love with my God and see things for what they are . 

It’s not easy no . I cry I do . But I’m strong in my identity in Christ this is the difference 

Destiny

Destiny -

It’s an empty vessel 

Full of direction 

Tell me your story 

I wear mine on these patches made of old stamps and letters never quite returned 

So here I am 

With hope 

It’s all I really got 

No one understands . 

Love is an empty bottle 

But figure this 

I may be an orphan 

But I’m not weak 

I may not have a home 

But I won’t lose 

Not this time . 

I always loved the rain 

He said . 

I can’t think of this 

As I look for light houses . 

- Amy Everett