Pain slides past my eyes hidden behind brown flecks behind a masked sun
There’s a white dress and red lips
I can’t escape the memories
Branded in my mind .
I try to run away
I try to write .
But your there next to me every where I go
Just like yesterday is today
And I
Can’t breathe
I can’t change the pain you caused me
I can’t change the way you left me
I can’t change a thing
So tell me as I sit here alone
With you
Our song on repeat
The same tears falling day after day
Me wearing the same mask
And your old sweat shirt
I can’t feel you
I can’t smell you any more .
But fuck
I’m here in the crowd invisible
I’m here in the crowd not one damn person sees me here
But your next to me
I’m the only one who sees you
Smiling at me as you fade slowly
I’m screaming alone in my car .
Nothing changes
As the sun rises
The sun sets .
I can’t change how you left
How you didn’t love me the way you said you did
But most of all I can’t change
That I loved you the way I said I did .
So here I am
In this big fucking crowd alone
I’m screaming
I’m invisible
No one saw me
But you .
And your so far away .
I can’t change
My white dress
My brown eyes
Or you the way your with me .
So I run
You didn’t love me
I run
You left me .
I run
I love you .
