Wonderland

Alice takes a swallow 

Finds herself smaller 

Reflection hauntingly shattered 

Racing to find the peices that make her 

Big 

Again 

Door handles rusted 

Leading to the hallways 

Where letters read on walls 

Are the arrows of perfection 

In reflections of those hand held 

Compilations she needs so badly 

Now the locks are locked so tightly 

The cat sits smiling 

Of all the love he never quite had 

But I know who has the key 

I'm not the one for reckoning 

I'm also not crazy 

My head is on tightly 

As I swallow it all one more time 

I had it all since the beginning 

Un - certain

Lost diaries hold secrets 

Of letters that will not return to her sender the way they were sent 

Like the way you entered the room 

The way we went 

Swept away like rain in the winter 

Thoughtless mindless 

Torn away 

Like an envelope lost from her stamp 

I have no home no address 

Left the last look 

Of the first love with no hello 

No good bye 

Tell me 

How to live 

Lost . 

Losing

I cross the ocean 

As I lie here staring at the ceiling 

My prison , a funeral holds my hand 

I can't shake her 

She sings me to sleep 

She whispers good morning 

I look past her to find your smile 

I throw on my head phones 

Streaming songs of conversations 

Run muted and shattered like this note 

Words sent under untouched lips 

I wait . 

I feel you listening . 

As I lay here 

I know you hear me . 

Heaven

On the contrary I speak in eternity 

Will you be with me 

Somewhere holding my hand 

Can you chase your fears away 

For a moment 

To hold my hands 

I'm standing now right at the beginning 

Where the world is mocking me 

I wrinkle my nose at there suggestions

That I may not be something made 

Of ashes and queens 

I wait for you ....

To come running 

To catch my smile 

To hold it safely 

Big brown eyes alone 

In the dawn 

Will you be 

My destiny