Midway (1)

It's deafening here
I hear your message clear
Static builds in lines empty
I color in old books of hearts and initials
Crumbled and lost beneath a bed

So I manage to take the train
Another way
Another day

I walk boldly away
But I'm lying if I didn't say
My heart at the station is where it stays

A friend once told me
You can't quiet mad love
So instead it's scattered in ryhmns
In letters

I can go
You say please let go

It's like breaking gold .
So here I go

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Waiting Between

The farther I go 

The closer i come back to you 

Like a broken compass 

It's arrow always pointing 

Always suggesting 

But never doubting . 

I find myself searching 

Lost sometimes . 

Never when I come to terms with 

The arrow . 

I've never been so sure about anything in my life 

And every time I turn my back to say good bye 

Something tells me , no this way . 

How can I be so wrong ? 

I feel you in my soul . 

Am I wrong ? 

I watch the compass now alone 

Wondering if you watch it too 

Night

Soldier grieves the war
Black rose lined the left side of her finger
Thorns absent - heart oxegyn.
Spilled into your lungs like paint
Hung in your living room mantel

I'm haunted by perfect love
Skeleton key - subsides under
Paint brush

I breathe .

Grieving soldier
I can fight alone
She can fight with out you here
The death of me , is life with out you
Marching on
Piano screaming in the dark
Forgotten .
Like the winter .

Purge

It was leather and the fog followed her
Buckled under the loss even now
The coroner  asked her
Every decision is calculated
Even in decision

There's a message in your pocket
Still
She held on to it all these years
Clutched on cold table
Withered , the man was curious

I searched the clock
It was empty , no numbers , no faces
I couldn't remember how the day went
How I got here

I put my hand on my chest
I asked for the answer
Clutching old paper
Everything's a message
The paper was blank
The coroner read it loud

The table was cold
Ravens black .

Paper Mache

I'm not sure how the sky grew so dark
How the stars lost there light
Or how the music became so silent

I just know that roads are always connected
Even when they seem so divided
Maybe you read these letters addressed to you
That sit in my mail box empty
Read by my wire rimmed lense
Crafted by paper clipped heart instead
I keep in this locket perfect with your vintage
Letters I keep warm with whisky trying to forget
The way I can't stop
Loving
You

monopoly

The metal coats hang
With frozen smiles
Empty pictures - I stand here
Wait for your imperfect hand shake
Did you notice me in the corner of the room

There's a disguise
I didn't win the race tonight
Stupid girl in red ribbons
Should've known better ,
Never was that girl - sitting in time out

Had a voice
In an empty room
I fought for you to remember
My name

Should've come naturally
Funny I have this audience
All of them here
except you

She was extrodanary
She was never meant for the corner
Come in
Come in

Love Letters (1)

Delicate glass finds its self under the feet 

Of my eyes , I can't see my reflection 

With out you in the horizon . 

I can't write words with out my hero as the subject or look to the sky with out the star - 

And I drive watching the moon 

Wondering if your ever looking back at me 

As the drive feels more and more alone 

It really doesn't matter if I say good bye 

Your written in every line of my life 

Under shattered leaves of fall

The loss and win to lyrics of these songs 

The only problem is 

I can't bring you home . 

Why can't my love be enough 

I'm just a silly girl

White cotton panties 

Warm sun 

My heart beats big for you 

Not the biggest band aid could do 

I just always knew 

Orchestra

Moments sit on finger tips 

Dancing on ideas that seem to fade 

In and out like you 

The frequency resonates 

The band plays - 

I fall asleep to the tune 

I write my own story 

I'm my own orchestrator 

I fall into your sea 

Lost and forgotten 

The Stars won't leave me 

The band plays louder 

Then fades into the distance 

What can I do 

What can I do now 

These moments sit on my fingertips 

Alone 

Waiting for home 

Dungeon (1)

Here I am at the door 

No ones there 

I'm scattered left remaining 

Tasseled hair 

Maybe it's meant to be 

Left alone 

Hand grasping air 

Butterfly bandaid 

Hiding yesterday 

No one looking back at her 

There's a time and a place 

But the clock never seems to be pointing 

In her direction 

What does it take 

To start over 

Do you see me 

Like holes 

In black sky's 

Feel me breathe in you tonight 

Here I am at the door

No ones there 

I'm scattered left remaining 

Crowns

Take me home to my heart . 

Sifted through ashes 

Conquering the wars 

Slaughtered lambs there's something to say for the living 

Something to remember for the lost 

I have a voice 

Lost under glass 

Concrete walls 

Free me from this 

I'm the wolf 

Pacing at the door 

Covered in the lambs tragedy 

So here you have the storm 

I have everything there is to be told 

I'm not an underestimation 

I'm the lullabie

To unanswered prayers 

So listen close 

There's something to be said for the living 

I been sifted through the ashes 

Found wanting 

Made into new beginnings 

Take heart I say 

As the clouds gather 

We will not fall 

I promise you 

We will not fall 

Consolation

If I sent you one last letter 

I would tell you I'm letting you go 

Your the ace missing from my deck 

The best whisky on the shelf 

But I can't hold on to love 

That doesn't love me back 

And I can tell you 

It would be worth waiting forever 

As you live in these over due pages 

With no return answers 

Shadows (1)

Alice commits suicide 

Can't shake the shadow 

She runs one way 

Hearts another 

Kings sit pretty with crowns 

They watch her fall 

It only matters if she's on her knees 

As she band aids the loss of being incomplete 

There's an ace missing from my deck 

There's a storm over head 

Nothing can stop her 

From un becoming what they want her to be 

She looks past the shadow 

Like Peter Pan 

A fairy tale can't save her 

I sit here between words and periods 

In this world alone 

Lost 

Says , Alice 

Searching through every window 

Sea

It's this place

He says . 

Take my hand 

She says . 

Across the wall 

Built against oceans 

I make this boat 

Patch work left wounded 

Stitches and sails unfolded 

It's dark here 

The storm comes from her eyes 

She becomes a light house 

He said I see you 

She said 

Come . 

Lights faltering 

In and out through the haze 

I can be your sun rise 

But as I sit the sun only sets 

Compiled

A letter where words break apart 

The last letter I will

Write 

About how it changed my life 

Something I have to let go 

And can't say good bye 

If I sailed the world to find the darkest ocean 

It could never hear the torture 

Of losing what could never be 

Found again 

I listen in the darkness 

Nothing 

How do I say goodbye 

In this letter I write 

But I can't keep fighting either 

I'm a ghost

Your the sailor 

I see the pictures 

And I'm not your home 

I can't forget 

I can't remember 

Can't say good bye 

Can't say hello either 

So here's your stamp 

I'm home 

I'm not your home 

Writing to say 

I can't let go 

But I have to say good bye 

Midnight

I'm standing in the rain 

I'm not the midnight train 

Waiting at the station 

Coming and going 

Coming 

And 

Going 

Do you see me here 

Wait with me 

Traveling alone 

Never asking me where I'm going 

My suit case full 

Am I not the beauty 

As you cast your stone 

My heart beating on broken tracks 

Dead 

And gone 

A leather cliche 

I'm more than fascinated 

But you can't read this can you 

Or your suitcase would be ready 

I'm more than this 

I'm a kiss 

Hello 

Not just good bye 

The Fall

I feel the leaves of you 

Wrestling under my skin 

It's always fall , in this place 

I sit in the warmth 

Watch trees changing shape 

I can't walk to winter 

Leaving you behind 

I hesitate in every moment 

Trying to find 

A smile in the silence 

Bringing you here 

I'm stepping on keys 

Black and white 

Can you still hear 

The scream of breaking me open 

The smell of home on your fingers 

I lie here now 

Leaves blowing in the wind 

Midnight of winter moving in 

I stay here quiet and alone 

Hoping you will meet me here 

Kalidescope Letter

I see you from the corner of my eye 

I'm displaced in this shadow 

I'm choking on reason 

Living on memory 

Tell me 

Marry me 

Marry me 

As broken fingers get ready for the fall 

Tell me 

Stay with me 

Stay with me 

I don't regret this at all 

I can fight in these songs 

My insides 

Where you live 

You are my blood 

Coursing through this heart 

There is nothing 

To bring you back 

I stand here in the rain 

Singing you songs 

It's cold 

I miss your warm 

It's the death of me 

And I'm ok 

Tell me 

Speak to me 

Speak to me 

I hear you from a thousand miles 

I write in the sand 

Falling from hour glass 

Every moment alone 

There not you 

Thank you 

Broken fingers holding on 

Tell me 

You loved me 

You loved me 

I'm in the rain 

No regret 

Gypsy

There was a moment 

Swallowed in blankets 

Fighting an ocean of tears 

Listening to your words 

Slowly drowning me 

It was that night 

I fell apart 

When I needed you to be the one to fall 

Hand me a cigar 

I'll quietly miss you 

As I drive alone in my car 

If I could push rewind 

Could I change that night 

Maybe you just needed convincing 

I'm not hard to love 

Left with candles and stale cake 

What do I do with this 

I knew you were mine from beginning to end 

I'm no beggar 

When I write these letters 

I wanted you to stay 

Because you wanted too 

But I never fall 

But I did that night 

As you slammed the door 

Now I'm left 

Full of reminders 

Of what I'm looking for 

Panic.

Can you be the shelter 

In my storms - 

Calmly sitting patiently 

I ask you 

Does the crow keep you warm 

Night shifts into a melody 

You hummm secretly 

And I begin to fade into the darkness 

How do I keep your light 

She wondered