U turns

Exit door lights up 

Seems like it's revolving 

I'm sitting at the other end wondering 

How explanations turn into thoughts 

Into written words 

Into blank messages 

Faith has me here 

In every window 

Every song 

Losing you best is trying 

To find you again 

Letting go 

Holding on 

All over again 

Crayons (1)

I wrote you a letter today 

Like a coloring book 

Inside and outside the lines I drew 

I crushed the paper a hundred times 

I couldn't quite get the message through 

I knew in your silence 

What you were going through 

The crayons are laying on the floor 

Music streams at midnight 

Not sure where the time went 

But I knew 

I'm left here crumbling paper 

Can't say I'm surprised 

Tried to catch you before midnight 

Before you hid your final good bye 

Under the mat where keys go that wer'e meant to find . 

You know what I mean don't you ?

You knew I had it figured from the beginning 

Should've stayed 

I'm the finish line you see 

Now I'm here left with paper 

Crumbling 

With endings and new beginnings 

38

I write best when I'm not thinking 

Heart guides me best as I'm driving 

Whatever she tells me is the truth 

It's always the truth between you and me 

My voice is all I have 

You will only know me if your listening 

I love deeply but love rarely 

Love never comes easy 

Success only comes when you believe in yourself 

Believing is integrity 

I have a handful of friends but boy 

Do they mean everything 

And to them I'm everything 

They hear me . 

I'm 38 tomorrow 

This past year I've learned to listen to people from the inside 

Things are not black and white 

We live once take nothing for granted 

Let no one take you for granted 

And never let go of love . 

Because true love comes back . 

And most of all make everything count and never do anything you may regret 

Cheers to another year 

Light Houses

Phones type out blank messages 

Neon lights fade into a sunset 

As I drive tonight 

Shadows pasted perfect to the music 

Never fading never staying 

The rocks seem more like empty waves 

I can't stand on a grave 

Sail the seas I say 

Anchors remind me of the light 

Broken on the hill - 

Searching for calm 

Finding only the storm 

I never wanted to be the hero 

Just didn't want to get lost amongst the waves 

The distance is fading faster 

As I read the news paper 

Bets are in 

All or nothing he said 

As I sail alone 

With ghost from home 

Paintings

Contemplate finger prints 

Left on coffee tables 

I watch the crows spread there wings 

Leaving a winter behind 

I am the sunshine 

If you rinse the Braille I left on your heart 

Then friendships aren't made to last 

There's a foggy rainbow 

Telling you , your stories 

Sitting here alone 

With your brush strokes 

I can't remember what you said 

I'm just left with a picture 

Don't let it burn in my hands 

Contemplating finger prints 

Left on glass tables 

Afraid of the coming 

Afraid of the going 

I am the sun shine 

Left with this picture 

Left in your hands 

Spells

Cast a shadow in the well 

Change falls from this pocket 

Wishes fall on empty stars 

Funerals line broken dreams 

With the courage to take a hand 

Sitting still - I'm gonna stand 

I hear you in the distance 

Voices lost on old pages 

Half written ,holding on to every letter 

That was never addressed . 

Lockets separate, 

Golden clasp 

I see you in the window 

Calling my name 

I can't reach you there 

You can't reach me  

Black

Leather panties crawl on the floor 

The devil smiles 

Red harmony typed out 

Calculated hunt , 

Guns drawn at the silver gate 

Betting is it heaven or hell 

Whisper my name 

As I scream 

Love dies in black rose lenses 

Reborn at midnight 

When we have fallen 

Take place 

At the starting line 

Return to my bed 

Can't imagine you out of my head 

Gun re loaded 

Tell me again 

I'm what you always needed 

Like a cigarette

Like a needle dripping heroine 

Carbon

I drive through empty tunnels 

Wind passes through broken spaces 

A hundred hands grab my fingers 

I turn the music up 

Sing the last song I can remember 

The review mirror stays the same 

Funny the way things change 

Funny the way they stay the same 

A hundred hands slipping through 

None holding me 

The miles begin to look the same 

On this drive tonight 

If the Braille was written on your wall 

Could you read it 

And I pass through a crowded room 

Looking for you 

Do you see me 

Fingers touching 

Moving

Telegraphs written gone unread 

A Lonley love song lost in smoke 

A conversation between two now one 

Tell me how does the story end 

You said you figured it best 

I figured I'd wait a little longer 

Little girls always have dreams of castles 

And you were the hero 

If I say good bye today 

If I put a stamp on this letter 

Would I fold your cape and put it away for later 

I sit now in our sunset 

Folding envelope 

Tired of all the nights alone 

Maybe love never dies 

But I can't fight alone . 

So I walk down the path 

The numbers on the house they fall 

One by one 

Eyes black - tears fall 

But you figured it best 

As I drop this letter in the mail 

I'm guessing 

There will be 

No answer 

Sure Things

I can't do it 

I draw words out 

Like spilled paint 

That never dries 

It is you standing there at the edge of every breath I take 

I fight every moment 

But you are there - 

Knocking on every door - 

I look to the sky 

On every night drive 

The Stars guide me home 

Tell me not to forget in faith tonight 

I feel you at home inside my eyes 

Sitting looking out 

I know you want what's best for me 

But you were what made me best 

You see 

Concrete Footprints

Spine falls flat into open wounds 

I call out into the darkness 

Nothing speaking back to me 

Converse untied 

Cold winds and a lost regret 

I can't think of anything else 

I saw you last night 

In a dream 

I saw you in the song I heard on the radio 

Life is fleeting into faded heart beats 

Riding this dream alone 

You tell me to let you go 

What's The Wall

Fall from heaven 

Ashes turn to wings 

Bridges burning in back grounds 

Just to realize pictures never meant a thing 

One brush with the best intentions 

Left me breathing 

As the door closes 

I open the window 

Climbing head first into the sunrise 

From the best night of my life 

I can't apologize he said 

I raise my hands 

I wake up to another tomorrow 

Tell me the secret as I fly 

Will you fall with me 

As ashes turn to wings 

One more memory painted in graffiti 

Burning buildings 

The news comes 

Love is like a bag of marbles 

Falling fast 

Tell me 

If you close the door 

I'll open the windows 

Climbing 

Head first to the sun rise 

Circles

I collect your pictures 

As they fall to the floor 

Like black eyes drawn to sky 

Wondering about the last night 

There's a huge answer 

With question 

How do I go on - 

There's a building 

Tearing it down 

There's a light 

In the tunnel I chase you in 

Shadows left behind 

Sit with me in the moment 

Meet me here in the memory 

When everything was perfect 

No care - 

Now there's no answer 

Tell me how 

With the whisper of good byes 

Left on parchment paper 

Hoping this pen will run out 

But love it never dies 

It lives on 

Ever searching for your light 

Finding shadows instead 

Possibility

Impossibility the moon whispers 

For even the star can't live away from 

Her sun 

Impossible the way 

She runs . 

I press up against a glass wall 

If I could scream aloud 

Fogg up your sky 

Re trace your memory 

Back 

To my kiss 

I would try harder not to ever lose you - 

Bubble gum kiss on your lips 

How does it 

Impossibility 

A boat float 

With out her ocean 

And I guess she just will 

Post War

Collect the stars in rusted necklace 

That's alright 

Carry you around my neck 

That's alright 

Dust the memory off broken dreams 

That's alright 

Find you in the eyes of songs 

That's alright 

Wait for you to come home 

That's alright 

Try to forget you 

That's alright 

Remembering  you 

That's alright too 

Lions

Years erode into paths 

A wrinkled soul hides well to beautiful smile 

Shake my hand years of scars 

Hidden wisdom 

Leaning on bookshelves in the dark 

Travel in silence 

Hear the crowds 

Love absent 

Full of faith 

Miles part 

The only difference now 

Is the ones who chose to hold my hands 

Follow through or fall away - 

There for the memory 

To take my breath away 

Lean on my library 

Open my page 

Courage and faith 

Questionable

Stained memory 

Filtered high , breathing you in

Holding it in tight 

Black widow flight 

Dangling for the devil 

Grinning from my chin 

Tell me why your hell feels like heaven 

I have this glass of whiskey 

You say I'm not fine wine 

Your right - 

I'll tell you darling 

If you come closer 

You will find 

I'm the poison in your veins 

Runs long past tonight 

A heroin you can't fight 

So I whisper in your ear 

When your alone at night 

Tornequete 

Resolve

There's the great unknown 

I hold the finish line 

The race we run unjust I know 

Tell me what it takes to bring you home 

Miles of broken road 

Bending dreams conform 

And I am ready to give up 

To give in 

I look in the window

See your reflection 

I tell myself one more day 

I tell myself no more 

Then I'm reminded 

Your my guardian angel 

And I know this road you travel 

I don't know the words to write 

To bring you back 

But I tell myself to give up 

As I sit in the window and stare 

Just one more day 

One more day 

She says 

Home

Pray for tomorrow but for today , all I want is to be home . Stand in the mirror you look the same just looking for shelter cold and the pain someone to cover safe from the rain , all I want is to be home . 

- foo fighters 

Fear of my heart absence of faith . 

Empty glass 

Eyes full of grace 

I can't change tonight 

But I can promise you will be safe 

There's an open road 

Bent miles of pain 

Stolen from the wreckage 

I know loss I know gains 

Let me fill your glass 

I'll be your whisky tonight 

Best intention you've had all your life 

Rabbit Holes

Lipstick stained pillows 

Hold steady conversations 

Between broken walls and rusted hearts 

No resolution 

Searching dark iris 

In comfortable position 

I get lost in you 

But only for a moment 

If I stay to long 

I fear I won't escape the beauty 

And the beast of you 

So I'll sleep in your shadow tonight 

And rest in your tomorrow 

Lipstick smeared kiss 

Cotton panties 

Spilled on the floor 

Hand cuff caress

Begging 

For another 

Night 

To rest 

In you