Wreckage

Feel my heart stop I lift my eyes 

I can't choose when to love 

Or who I am a part of - yellow card 

Deserted dreams 

Are like a dead army 

At war . 

Marching with empty guns 

There's a place I hide 

A grave where I still find us there 

Much alive 

I'm fighting at the edge of a storm 

Nothing is left but my heart 

With weapons down 

I'm screaming 

Can you hear me ? 

I'll fight here in this place 

Hearts cut into pieces 

I blow there ashes 

Falling sand through 

Your broken fingers 

There's a place I hide 

A grave where I still find us their 

Much alive 

I'm here in the rain 

Calling out 

Can you hear me ? 

Acquisition

The quiet things that no one ever knows - The Brand New 

I started a revolution 

In your eyes , I traveled through the room 

In your arms I fell to my death 

I'm the spine holding the broken back 

I'm the Vengence 

Tearing away your clothes 

There's a whisper in the audience 

Can you hear my name 

I'm the rain

I'm your heart

Feel me beating 

Shakespeare

Locks and a safe hanging behind
 favorite paintings
Over fireplaces where I sit and contemplate
Everything we can't remember
And the one thing we can .

I'll sit in your chair you see
Smoke your cigar
There is nothing like me
I'll get in your safe
Beyond the maze
With out you recognizing my face

But you will never mind I'm there
Your paintings a cold museum
Perfect ,

I'm a perfect mess .

I read your Braille the moment
We shook hands .

Now you walk the halls of my museum

I ask you

Do you need a cigarette

Possibility

There's a terrible sadness in the air
Pick me up in your shelter
You told me it's cold inside

But I'm out here in the rain -

There's a fire
I course through your veins

Let her break your sky

The Stars cry
Save me like you did yesterday
Save me like I saved you

You say it's cold outside
But I'm out in the rain

Hear the wolves
Coming closer ?

I know you remember me
I have a fire
It runs through your veins

Goal Post

I reposted from my Agent Orange blog . I want to redirect some of my poetry traffic to my other blog
It's meant to inspire and help reach goals .

Please go to my blog profile and you will find agent orange blog . Thank you .

Foo fighters - ever long is a great song , My friend Phil got me listening to it now it's my turn to get you to listen to it . And as it streams through my head phones I will write today's blog -

I started this blog a year and half ago . I wanted it to encourage others in hope and in love . Sometimes I read back and I encourage myself on the days I forget how strong I am . 

The one thing I always say to any one is keep your integrity and be you . When friends ask for advice I tell them the same. Sometimes in life we get hurt or others will hurt us . But as long as you can look in the mirror and say I have integrity and I'm being true to myself your doing ok . 

Secondly focus on the goals at hand . I have set goals I write them down and crush them . Maybe there are a few I got close that's ok too . You keep pushing keep making new goals . 

Sometimes the higher you get the more heat you get . People don't like to see others accomplishing anything . It doesn't matter how nice you are , or who you are , you can't please the masses . 

Keep your focus on the finish line . You can't win watching the side lines . 

Thirdly - to your friends and enemies give love . This is called character . I mean your going to win right ? All that matters is who's at the end cheering you on . 

It's rough I know . Don't lose your joy , sometimes I do , but I'm reminded God is there , friends are there , and look to some of the great people on your journey 

Never give up !! Follow the rules 

-agent orange 

Game Of Risks

" And you asked me to open up my walls to all of this , but I tried , with fingers broken ," - Scope Of All This Rebuilding

I pause in the storm
The silence is screaming
I break for you -

This is how the story goes

Written in between the lines of these pages

Yet all they want is between half past 11 and midnight

There's something to be said about a story unread

Maybe she's missing some pages ........

Some say there's love

I say there's fairy tales

I say fuck

Maybe I broke this type writer
Maybe I'm invisible

He writes at midnight
He says I'm beautiful
I say he's beautiful

What's your story

We both have our walls he says

Fingers bleeding
It's cold outside
I'll let you in

Alice and the Cat (1)

There's a rain coat rusted and red
I stare at it hiding in the corner
I watch the sun rising through small rain drops

I remember the way your smile changed my eyes
There's a song playing in the distance
I hear you humming from across the ocean

You whisper -
Alice I have not forgotten -

I contemplate the red jacket
As I toss back whisky and regrets
Make me big again
She says ,
To the cat -

Alice was always brave - he said .
But I could argue that .

So here she goes , the cold sets in
And you dare me to pick my sword up again

Because love lives even when love dies -

And that's what you always taught me -

Never giving up -

Heroes

I took a pill this morning
Slip away they say
Make me forget I tell myself
In a mirror -

I forget what love is
Until I see your picture
Then I forget why I'm dead

I cut my day around lost smiles
Take a pill in the pm

Smile fades in the day
The phone rings its him
My emails empty though

I remember you saved me first

Entry

View from the roof top of your iris
Seems clouded .....
I sit and conversate with your demons
They can't hear me right .

I'm screaming at the gate .
I watch you holding hands
With a ghost

I hold hands with the past

I carry this letter
I can't find the author
Signed by you

Panic Room

Funny how a familiar smile becomes forgotten
And a laugh that once saved you
Is lost like a stranger -
On a crowded street in New York -

I fancy the way blankets and fingers crossed us
On Mondays

Or the way the city lights hummed as we drove
On Tuesdays

It's Friday now - and we can't spell our names
I love you / written on a steamed bathroom mirror

Lost when you opened the door to say good bye

It's not supposed to end that way ,

It's not supposed to begin that way either

Asleep

Collateral she says 

Button missing 

Fix me please ? 

I'm not the one she says ..... 

He pleads his case - 

I shake my head 

I'm left here alone 

With graffiti on my walls 

Doesn't quite keep her warm 

Phone is ringing 

"What's the harm , "he says 

"Of course ," he says 

As she waits alone - 

The thing is 

He won't even read this letter 

He's not even brave enough to save me 

Not even brave enough to save himself 

Reverse (1)

I'm not sure why 

She said 

The phone went dead and suddenly 

So suddenly the connection was lost - 

I went over the story 

About the boy 

Doesn't matter does it ? 

How many times we cry ? 

I watch the airplanes fall from the sky 

I hold his picture every night 

But darling 

No ones left holding 

On the phone 

Gambling your last penny 

Drinking your last shot at the bar 

Betting your last smile 

Of this memory 

I'm telling you don't look back 

The cost is left in the wonder 

Your value a broken mirror 

Paid in full with his debts 

So let me tell you about a boy 

The phone went dead suddenly 

So suddenly 

Faces

If It was about the value of this penny 

All the change in your pocket wouldn't do

It's not about me , it was always about what they saw in you - 

I walked around with out a mirror for so long , passing strangers , face planted in the ground 

Back faced into the crowd 

Invisible 

But it was you 

The one you couldn't face 

All along - 

It was your weight I carried 

On the shelf 

I toss the penny in the well 

Staring eye to eye now in the crowd 

Sometimes me 

Sometimes them 

A pocket of change 

Your regret 

Fiths

There's a candle

Half lit 

Ashes breaking in winters Sky 

I put my puffy red lips together 

Blow you a kiss - 

I'm rummaging through band aids 

And blankets - 

How does she hold you 

How does she mend you 

It's all the same dear ...... 

Come sit with me 

Snow flakes falling 

Not one ever the same 

I'll take you for a ride tonight 

Make you believe everything's all right 

To bring you back to life again - 

The wax has become cold 

I search for you under the snow 

I wish I could 

I wish I could 

Change nightmares to dreams 

The Winter Collection

There's a tide coming in 

He said close your eyes 

Follow me girl 

Into the forest we walk 

Blind folded my love 

Eyes wide open - 

Laundry hanging on the line 

Paper clipped heart shapes made of twine 

Tell me Mr sandman , I write fairy tales in sand , washed away by the hands 

Of the unforgiving tide - 

Follow me he says - 

He laughs - 

The forest is cold - 

The crows are screaming 

I ask,"have you heard a word I said?" 

The sun is setting 

The path is narrowing ,

You hold my hand and whisper - 

Trust me - 

I see him , leaving 

And I see him leaving too - 

I remember their suit cases were packed long before you got here . 

And I'm peeking through these cracks 

And I let go of your hand 

Because your fingers 

Are their fingers 

And I'm packed 

The train is waiting you see 

It's always waiting 

Paper mache heart 

Perfectly clipped to your hand 

In place where I once stood 

Tell me Mr sandman , 

How do I write fairy tales 

In pen ? 

With blind fold on 

Eyes closed 

Electrical Conduction (1)

A thousand notes scattered and scarred

Can you die of a broken heart ? 

Electrical problems they say - 

There's a thin line 

As I drive one last mile 

Praying all the way to the grave 

This time I'm alone . 

Hand stitched friendship bracelets 

Gold cross around my neck 

Tattered I am 

Used up 

What will they say ? 

As every dream streams down her face 

I hear the dial tone 

No one left on the phone . 

Can you die from a broken a heart ? 

I read the news this morning 

The pills prescribed are mine . 

Another Song

Picking up hands she says 

As the faceless clock mocks me 

I fear my leader has gone 

And I can't reckon the last time I sailed 

Fearless - 

Can you see the magic ? 

The moment I stepped in to your black picket fences 

I burned them to ashes 

We called it love 

No one understands this rhyme 

Of a locket split and frozen in time 

Conversations running back and forth in our minds 

He heard the music play you see 

Silent in the winter air 

Now left writing fairy tales 

Paper

Old magazine add reads 

Obituaries of torn up pictures 

Left over memories with no finger prints 

No names - 

Contacts embrace dialated lense 

Old tears fill an ocean of pillows 

I rest my head on , only I never sleep 

As I carry on alone 

Walking with regret 

Growing grey and invisible yet invincible isn't the same 

Tell me as I lie here alone 

How will it end 

What will it say 

As the water rises 

And the violins play 

Their  tune drunk

They never understood a word 

They say 

Never understood 

The girl at all - 

Percussion

Hold the cuffs 

Puff out the secrets 

Fuck all that red lipstick 

 

You say your not the one 

I say I am the sun 

I'm everyone's 

The narcissist cup 

Drink me up 

Who can contain me 

In your room 

In your bed 

Tell me your story 

Can you read mine 

Braille at the end of a journey 

I may be your biggest mistake 

Tracks

There's a stethoscope love 

Bound by the train 

I'm roaming on the tracks 

I hear your heart beating 

I'm pacing 

The clock turns half past morning 

And the sunrise reminds me 

As they sit quietly on the outside breathing 

Come in 

Come inside 

The station is busy 

The train passes by 

No one notices 

Me