Friday, December 25, 2015

The Winter Collection

There's a tide coming in 
He said close your eyes 
Follow me girl 
Into the forest we walk 
Blind folded my love 
Eyes wide open - 

Laundry hanging on the line 
Paper clipped heart shapes made of twine 
Tell me Mr sandman , I write fairy tales in sand , washed away by the hands 
Of the unforgiving tide - 

Follow me he says - 
He laughs - 

The forest is cold - 
The crows are screaming 
I ask,"have you heard a word I said?" 

The sun is setting 
The path is narrowing ,
You hold my hand and whisper - 
Trust me - 

I see him , leaving 
And I see him leaving too - 
I remember their suit cases were packed long before you got here . 

And I'm peeking through these cracks 
And I let go of your hand 
Because your fingers 
Are their fingers 
And I'm packed 
The train is waiting you see 
It's always waiting 

Paper mache heart 
Perfectly clipped to your hand 
In place where I once stood 

Tell me Mr sandman , 
How do I write fairy tales 
In pen ? 

With blind fold on 
Eyes closed 

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Electrical Conduction (1)

A thousand notes scattered and scarred
Can you die of a broken heart ? 
Electrical problems they say - 

There's a thin line 
As I drive one last mile 
Praying all the way to the grave 

This time I'm alone . 

Hand stitched friendship bracelets 
Gold cross around my neck 
Tattered I am 
Used up 
What will they say ? 

As every dream streams down her face 
I hear the dial tone 
No one left on the phone . 

Can you die from a broken a heart ? 
I read the news this morning 
The pills prescribed are mine . 

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Another Song

Picking up hands she says 
As the faceless clock mocks me 
I fear my leader has gone 
And I can't reckon the last time I sailed 
Fearless - 

Can you see the magic ? 
The moment I stepped in to your black picket fences 
I burned them to ashes 
We called it love 
No one understands this rhyme 
Of a locket split and frozen in time 

Conversations running back and forth in our minds 
He heard the music play you see 
Silent in the winter air 

Now left writing fairy tales 

Friday, December 4, 2015

Paper

Old magazine add reads 
Obituaries of torn up pictures 
Left over memories with no finger prints 
No names - 

Contacts embrace dialated lense 
Old tears fill an ocean of pillows 
I rest my head on , only I never sleep 
As I carry on alone 
Walking with regret 
Growing grey and invisible yet invincible isn't the same 

Tell me as I lie here alone 
How will it end 
What will it say 
As the water rises 
And the violins play 
Their  tune drunk

They never understood a word 
They say 
Never understood 
The girl at all - 

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Percussion

Hold the cuffs 
Puff out the secrets 
Fuck all that red lipstick 
 
You say your not the one 
I say I am the sun 
I'm everyone's 
The narcissist cup 
Drink me up 

Who can contain me 
In your room 
In your bed 
Tell me your story 
Can you read mine 
Braille at the end of a journey 

I may be your biggest mistake 

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Tracks

There's a stethoscope love 
Bound by the train 
I'm roaming on the tracks 
I hear your heart beating 

I'm pacing 
The clock turns half past morning 
And the sunrise reminds me 

As they sit quietly on the outside breathing 
Come in 
Come inside 

The station is busy 
The train passes by 
No one notices 

Me 


Tuesday, November 24, 2015

The Crack

The pendulum ticks into memories 
Cutting them into flecks 
Spread across a dusty picture frame 
Nothing left 
Empty glass 

I'm aware of circumstances 
I dance alone with consequence 
Certainly I have conversations with notions

I grasp at the final words 
I scream at the ending 
I can't run any more 
I'm lost inside 
I'm found inside you 

Take me apart 
I died in your arms 

I walked into the gas station tonight 
Eyes black streaming 
They don't see the pain 
Of dying 

When you left 
I'm lost inside 
You see 
I'm found inside you -

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Winter

Echoes sit boldly in picture frames 
I drive along way from home 
The noise is deafening 
I can see my guardian angel watching me 
Quiet 

Empty chest 
Breathing in and out carefully 
Screaming somewhere in a cold snow 
Miles and miles away - 
How do I go - tell me - how do I go 

Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Devils And Demi - gods

There's a common fire 
Approaching the midnight ocean 
I see you in the horizon 
It's one more victory 
Before we turn in - 

I can't stand anymore she said 
I can't love he said 
An' we met under the blanket of dawn 

Holding our guns 
With all our strength drawn 
Devil and his Demi - god 

With one last breath 
Against a hundred wars they won 
Bet against us to the last penny lost 

There's a common fire 
Approaching the midnight 
I see you there 
In the horizon 
It's one more victory 
Won 
Before we turn in - 

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Flame

The day is half decided 
Dreams run through like heroine 
I can't brush you off - 

It's the needle parted into 
Heart beats - 
Running defeated and half empty 

Tell me the secrets we hold in our hands 
Stretched faith and shot glasses 
Filled with nothing but moments 
As the miles go on like a nightmare 
I can't wake from - 

For every verse is yours 

Like heroine 
Coveting 
All that is mine . 

All I've become 
Is the day 
Half decided . 


Monday, October 5, 2015

Sailors Plight

I'm not quite sure how he got the most important paddle 
I sit here palm on cheek laughing mildly 
To my self alone in my wooden boat 

Over thinking stale conversations , about 
The way you looked so much better on me 
as the sun touches the horizon I'm left a little fuzzy and a little broken 

And your left with that part of me somewhere ,with an extra paddle you see 
So tell me as I'm left mid sentence as its better for you and better for me - when we're left with broken pieces at the hull of the issue 
you were once my captain 

I'm left here softly laughing 

Some how discouraged 
Setting sail 

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

The Races

You are the hero and the killer 
Puffy red lips dream of kissing you 
    Good night 

No sign of you 

I tell myself in neon intentions nothing's left , as you sink my ship , nuclear she says , something you only see in those books you find in vintage thrift stores - 



And the gentleman come and go as fast as they say hello , they've got no chances 

She watches the horizon and she knows he's not coming back - 

Tell me , what to do with a love like that ? 
The quiet is noise these days , I'm so lost 
I here the music but it's not the same 

You see - it's not the same 

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Poetry and love

Poetry is a secret story between you and the paper . No one quite knows her secrets except the pen and the the air that dries her fragments and her lover that hears the lost good byes written for him tonight . 

I say poetry is best written as a lost letter written for her lover to find . But most poetry remains lost . That's why the best poetry is written late at night and the poet is alone . 

No poet will tell you what their poetry means . It's for you to decipher the hieroglyphics of words written for secret soul mates that lay a hundred miles away 
Under all these pages and pages and maybe just maybe you can take these words and cut and paste them into your world like music and sing along with us . 

I write mostly about a love I met a few years ago and said good bye too - 

He is my twin flame my 1111 . I think I write best when I'm loving or falling apart and he has me doing both . And that's just fine I write my best this way . 

I urge you to follow along on my journey and find yours as well 

- war commander 

Saturday, September 5, 2015

Conversations

If I could I would write the perfect letter 
To bring you home , 
I would tell you about how I drive home at night I think of you and stare at the moon , wondering if you watch it too . 

I would tell you how I lay in bed dreaming of holding you just one more time 
Wondering if you ever dream it too - 

I also wish I could just once hand stitch every song that reminds me of you , but it would be to many lines and to many words , you see - 

And if I could one last time I would tell you about how confused I was about your note , because good byes never come bye one way conversations between a lock and a key - 

So tell me because I know .... I'm not crazy , and I've been a little around the block , and a girl like me doesn't give love so easy - 
So tell me - when I'm a hundred million light years away do you feel me - ? 

When I tell you I miss you when I'm alone in my bed ? Do you hear me on my drive home at night tell you I love you when I search the moon ? 

And as much as I move on my heart stays back some where with you . 

Maybe you will never read this letter addressed to you . But maybe you will hear me talking to you on my drives home . 


Thursday, August 20, 2015

Never Resting

" In this world there's real and make believe , this seems real to me " - 3 Doors Down -


I can't see the other face of the world 
Standing in someone else's life 
Like rusted nails we're  breaking down 

The whisky runs dry - 
I see it written on the wall 
A Braille only you can feel - 

I push in the chair 
Leave 
You have no good bye 
Lost somewhere amongst the crowds 

Is she a face you see past the doubts 
As you run 
She waits alone in the bar - 

There's nothing I can do 
Nothing I can say to make you 
Understand 

She walks slowly to the door 
Do you remember what was left behind 

And I - 
Fall to my knees , 
Like a rusted dream it falls apart 

Braille on the wall 
I'm writing this letter to you 
I know you hear me 

Whisky runs dry 
No good bye 
Don't tell me 
I'm not 
A face in the crowd 

As she leaves the bar 

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Letter to You

I'm pressing forward 
But I can't move my heart 
I can't go on with out you - 

And I'm moving 
I'm happy - 

But I'm lost - 
It may sound crazy 
Me writing a letter 
About loving someone so much 
But I'm laying in bed dreaming about you -
Now that I'm alone in my bed 
With a broken heart 
Tell me how does one go on 
Knowing I love you so much . This isn't a poem you see . It's just me and these words laying here in the dark. 

As the tears fall down my face 
11:11 reads on the clock - 

All I wanted to know is if you ever felt 
The same . Do you miss me when I miss you ? You may never see this letter 
Or know - how hard it is to go on with out you 

Thursday, August 6, 2015

Are you here ?

Sometimes you wonder when someone lets you go , if it's so hard for me is it hard for them at all ? I can hardly stand it.  Checking my inbox and nothing . You want them to change there mind . I can't chase it anymore . If he loved me at all he would come back - I can't wait either - but in a way i do , in a way I always will - 

Friday, July 17, 2015

Twin flames

If I could tell the story I have 
Locked up in my safe 
Behind the painting over my fireplace 
I'd sit you down 
Eye to eye - tell you how I felt him 
From the inside the moment I layed my eyes on him 
I couldn't explain in it in detail 
All I could tell you is I knew him 
With out ever speaking a word 
With out ever saying our first hello

I fell in his soul / sounds crazy I know 
But there I stood as time as we knew it 
Stood still 
I knew in an instant he was mine forever 
I just had to have faith 
Because faith herself told me / his soul was telling me so 
And they begun a conversation from across a room 

I could barely sit still I didn't even know your name I knew I loved you / more than I ever loved before - 

That's the feeling I had the day I met him 
Written 7-2015

Thursday, July 16, 2015

Why It Does Exist

I have a very heavy topic to speak of . Will I ruffle some feathers ? May even lose friends and cause many conversations amongst the  young and the old .This topic is cause for great concern and critism , I will write from my own experience - add in excerpts from doctors , and most of all you may find  your self getting angry , but as you get angry - 

Maybe just maybe you may find I am right . So let me take a moment to put on my head phones , plug in my charger and take you on my journey .

I recently had a conversation with a close girlfriend of mine who said ," Amy , we have many soul mates ". She said ," don't limit yourself ". 

I used to believe this - I used to be a cinic 
I'm not saying she is a cinic . So here me out . I was at work last week , I sparked a conversation they said , " Amy , there is no such thing as a soul mate !" I felt sad inside . But just not long ago I was one of them . So let's start back to the beginning . 

All of these people are married . So keep this thought in mind . 
I want to keep this train going in the right direction so stay with me - 

Before we go further let's look at what a true soul mate is first ok . 

"A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely open and honest with who we are."

Ah, soulmates. The epitome of love and partnership. In our fast-paced chaotic world, which boasts all sorts of different people, we find ourselves skimming through more relationships than we'd like in order to find that one person who can truly open our locks.

Not just anyone can fulfill you the way your soulmate can. There's a world of a difference between your soulmate, your heart's other half and a life partner -- a person who lacks the elements to mold perfectly to you. Your soulmate makes you feel entirely whole, healed and intact, like no piece is missing from the puzzle. A life partner, on the other hand, can be a great supporter and long-time companion, but is limited in his or her capacity to enrich your spirit.

Most of us remain in life-partner relationships because we "settle," for a multitude of reasons. Firstly, we may have a real subconscious fear of being alone. And since we're biologically designed to fall in love, it's only natural that we pair up in this world. But we sometimes prolong what are meant to be temporary relationships and mistakenly settle into them for good. There are relationships which must last for a certain period of time to close out a karmic chapter of life, relationships in which we're meant to have children with our partner but not necessarily remain with them, and relationships which are just plain confusing because a melting pot of emotions doesn't allow us to see our predestined path.

from couples who married their childhood loves to people in their retirement years who still struggle with commitment issues. Most of us fall somewhere between these two extremes, meaning that we experienced several relationships before finding the person we believe to be our perfect pairing. Whether you're currently married, in a relationship, or contemplating entering a relationship with a new love interest, it is crucial that you know what role this person will play in your life. After all, there's no avoiding the inevitable, often uncomfortable question we must ask ourselves: Is this the person I was bound by destiny to share my life with? Or did I settle too quickly into a relationship with someone who can never complete me?

No matter the category you fit into to, there are several indications which clearly outline a soulmate bond (or a lack of bond) between you and your partner. As you go through this list, think about your partner or potential partner and evaluate whether they meet the soulmate criteria.


So here are the questions : 

1. It's something inside. Describing how a soulmate makes you feel is difficult. It's a tenacious, profound and lingering emotion which no words can encompass.

2. Flashbacks. If your partner is your soulmate, chances are he or she has been present in your past lives. Soulmates often choose to come back together during the same lifetime and scope each other out in the big world. You might suddenly and briefly experience flashbacks of your soulmate. You might even feel an odd sense of déjà vu, as if the moment in time has already taken place, perhaps a long time ago, perhaps in a different setting.

3. You just get each other. Ever met two people who finsh each other's sentences? Some people call that spending too much time together, but I call it a soulmate connection. You might experience this with your best friend or your mother, but it is the telltale sign of a soulmate when you experience it with your partner.

4. You fall in love with his (or her) flaws. No relationship is perfect, and even soulmate relationships will experience ups and downs. Still, that bond will be much harder to break. Soulmates have an easier time of accepting, even learning to love, each other's imperfections. Your relationship is more likely to be a soulmate match if you both love each other exactly as you each are, accepting both the great and awful tendencies we all have.

5. It's intense. A soulmate relationship may be more intense than normal relationships, in both good and sometimes bad ways. The most important thing is that, even during negative episodes, you're focused on resolving the problem and can see beyond the bad moment.

6. You two against the world. Soulmates often see their relationship as "us against the world." They feel so linked together that they're ready and willing to take on any feat of life, so long as they have their soulmate by their side. Soulmate relationships are founded on compromise and unity above all else.

7. You're mentally inseparable. Soulmates often have a mental connection similar to twins. They might pick up the phone to call each other at the exact same time. Though life may keep you apart at times, your minds will always be in tune if you are soulmates.

8. You feel secure and protected. Regardless of the gender of your partner, he or she should always make you feel secure and protected. This means that if you're a man, yes, your woman should make you feel protected, too! Your soulmate will make you feel like you have a guardian angel by your side. A person who plays on your insecurities, whether consciously or subconsciously, is not your soulmate.

9. You can't imagine your life without him (or her). A soulmate is not someone you can walk away from that easily. It is someone you can't imagine being without, a person you believe is worth sticking with and fighting for.

10. You look each other in the eye. Soulmates have a tendency to look into each other's eyes when speaking more often than ordinary couples. It comes naturally from the deep-seated connection between them. Looking a person in the eye when speaking denotes a high level of comfort and confidence.

Whether you're designed by the universe to be soulmates or two loving people who have settled for each other's strengths and weaknesses, the decision is yours. The beauty of free will is that you can remain in or change any relationship as you see fit. To be with your soulmate is one of the precious treasures of life. And if you feel you've found your heart's other half, I wish you endless days of joy and laughter, and countless nights of deep embrace, unraveling the mysteries of the universe one by one.


Soul mate or twin is something that is true and real . Sometimes like stated above if we marry young or settle its not because we found that spiritual twin connection , sadly it's found later in life it causes confusion . But it doesn't make it less real . This isn't about lust . 

I myself only experienced it once in life . It wasn't even to the person I married . I thought I loved in life until I experienced this . You feel what they feel , you just get them . It truly is a twin flame . 

My point is if you have found it no matter what your circumstance , be happy it's out there  ..... 

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Caged Birds

There's 2 sunsets 
One is dressed as the other undresses - 

One is at the east 
The other the west - 

You watch the dawn , 
Wondering how to reach her 
As the stars beg for forgiveness 
You toss and turn under the moon 
One you call home 
One you call your dreams - 
One kisses you good night from across 
The sea 
One falls asleep -