Wonderland (1)

Alice takes a swallow 

Finds herself smaller 

Reflection hauntingly shattered 

Racing to find the peices that make her 

Big 

Again 

Door handles rusted 

Leading to the hallways 

Where letters read on walls 

Are the arrows of perfection 

In reflections of those hand held 

Compilations she needs so badly 

Now the locks are locked so tightly 

The cat sits smiling 

Of all the love he never quite had 

But I know who has the key 

I'm not the one for reckoning 

I'm also not crazy 

My head is on tightly 

As I swallow it all one more time 

I had it all since the beginning 

Un - certain

Lost diaries hold secrets 

Of letters that will not return to her sender the way they were sent 

Like the way you entered the room 

The way we went 

Swept away like rain in the winter 

Thoughtless mindless 

Torn away 

Like an envelope lost from her stamp 

I have no home no address 

Left the last look 

Of the first love with no hello 

No good bye 

Tell me 

How to live 

Lost . 

Losing

I cross the ocean 

As I lie here staring at the ceiling 

My prison , a funeral holds my hand 

I can't shake her 

She sings me to sleep 

She whispers good morning 

I look past her to find your smile 

I throw on my head phones 

Streaming songs of conversations 

Run muted and shattered like this note 

Words sent under untouched lips 

I wait . 

I feel you listening . 

As I lay here 

I know you hear me . 

Heaven

On the contrary I speak in eternity 

Will you be with me 

Somewhere holding my hand 

Can you chase your fears away 

For a moment 

To hold my hands 

I'm standing now right at the beginning 

Where the world is mocking me 

I wrinkle my nose at there suggestions

That I may not be something made 

Of ashes and queens 

I wait for you ....

To come running 

To catch my smile 

To hold it safely 

Big brown eyes alone 

In the dawn 

Will you be 

My destiny 

Casualty

Rusted hurricanes settle on the floor
Whispering across rippled clouds
They color my eyes red

I'm haunted in this bed
Shadows on my skin
Stitched carefully , I breathe you in

Heart turns to smoke
Filling my empty room

Sun sets
Eyes turn black
She's bare , intentions left for her audition

I read the script
Handcuffed to eyes
That bring me in

Time nods her head
As I fall asleep again

Gains

theres the broken yellow line

Expired eyes welcome ocean iris 

As he sifts through gains and over due losses 

She holds an ocean in a locket 

Placed around her neck 

It pounds - 

It's bent . 

Who can open it ? 

He holds her 

She begins to Run 

Forgive me friend 

As I open my door . 

Your country song

I have a heart full of fight
I can sing a country song
As I watch you in the sunrise

I run even faster at the hope
You are their at the end
Sometimes forever might not work out my way

Dosent make me love you less
Or hate the good byes

Never loved like I loved you
Never lived til I lived in you

You woke me up
Gave me life

I can sing a country song
Lost against the sunrise

It's all in how you saved the day
Keep saving me every day

Believe me when I say
I'll love you to the last dawn
As she shuts her eyes

When I say my last good bye
You will be there
I will run to the sun rise hoping
Til the end
Just a chance to see you again

You stole my soul / mate
Your all I'll ever want in the midst of hell
To the heaven above
You are my hero

This is my country song
I'll sing it to my dying day

So here it is
She wanders the streets at night
Haunted by good byes
Always running to the sunrise

Castles

I sleep with a ghost
Waiting upon the return of the dead
I'm there in your back pocket
As you walk the path so uncertain

Will you come back
My smile waits for you
My heart lies somewhere in the graffiti painted by your hands
There is nothing left

Will someone take your place ?
The empty seat you left
Do you feel me crashing
All around you
Feel me
When your gone

This castle is wrapped in caution tape
They see the sign
I sit on the steps

It's crazy I know
In the waiting
Waiting for the ghost

Who built every stone
Even if I wait alone
Until it all comes crashing down

No one Is to enter in
Just close your eyes
Feel me here
Where we once stood

Now evicted
Im left here singing this song
Watching the road

Til I'm dead

Til I rebuild this all again

Galaxy

Trains pass like ghost
Stars mourn the day
Left in the arms of night

The climbing tracks are old
Looking for a home

Guided by a wilted balloon in a hurricane
Black marker etched names

Always coming
Numb to the goings .

There's only a paper trail left
Of the day we met
But yet our journey is never ending

Halves

There's a contest in the fire
Walking ashes
I've starved long before you made it to my door
I'm strong in you
I'm someone's bones
I'm un breakable
I'm a shadow
Pressed beyond the piano
Made for more
Made me something beautiful

You were the sun set
And a night mare

No longer safe
As you left
This is my song
I write across a hundred miles
About a love that never dies
And heart locket friendships laced in gold
Held in dirty palms
Close to secrets
Codes in this song
No one could ever tell
Etched sacred between
You
And
Me
I visit the grave
Where it says we lay
Peacefully
As the tears run down my past
I know 6 feet under were still holding hands

Eros

Iris melts on canvas
Painted pictures
Bare

If I told you how deep the loss
Would you believe me ?

A whole universe without her star
A compass missing her arrow

She walks the roads alone
Amoungst a hundred men
They grab her hand
Her hair tassled in the wind

She searches for him
In every single one

She looks at their hand
None
Her
King

Post War

I flip through songs like a deck of cards
Trying to find something to write
I lie here now on my bedroom floor
Eyes piercing the ceiling

There's no use
I can't retrieve you
I can't forget you either

Every song hides your smile
Every conversation sheds your light
I look back to see if your their and
Nothing

Time

There's no rainbow here
Under falling rain I bow
Finger tips running under
Demi gods

I can't quite reach you -
Thunder claims shaken lips
Nothing to say
Wars lost and wage -
One stands in the middle

I try to brave a smile
As the black crow circles her body
Waiting for the kill

Windshield holds no notes
She drives home alone
Chasing after butter flies
Love is fleeting under empty skie
An orphan .

Lockets

I hit my veins again
Knowing tomorrow I'll wake up with the same head aches
It's a redeeming addiction
One to kill me
No fancy words to jot down
Just a thousand miles of secrets
And the way you looked at me

Your the heart shaped locket
Thrown in a lingerie drawer
Picture cut
Hoping you hold the other half
Of the I love
You

I try I promise I tried
You told me to forget you

But you are
My I love you

The End

The drive is dark
Haunted by old ghost and eyes looking back

its midnight
The head lights guide my way home
I'm lost in your eyes
Pounding the back of my memory
Driving - my heart

There's nothing I can do about good byes
I sing out of tune to the radio
And love you every day all over again -

Deeper

A pool of manequine stitched words slowly 

Fall 

Into an empty void 

You speak but I can't even get in 

How could you 

Tragic death 

Hung by a noose 

Can't figure it 

Love slits my wrist 

Blood beneath my veins 

It's dark 

Can you save me 

Compiling (1)

Complicate the masses
Point the finger my way
No roses in my garden
Failures tend to their wounds
I pick up the bandages

No one picking me - up
There's a trail of tears stitched to your fairy tales
Burned with the bridge we built

Tell me
The story again
I've got a brass knuckle heart
Please try your best to come right in
The music plays
Do you even know my name
Look up above
My iris hasn't changed

There's Peter
There's Paul

Wars wage on
My souls bare
As I lie here
In my pretty dress

I dare you
To remember
To move me
To break me

With
In

When

Congratulations on the third step
Walking on water is never easy
As I'm tied to this bed called destiny
A ship on fire floating in a deserted sea

As you build your empire
Seems to be the audience I'm dancing for
I'm choking with no land and no sight to your ocean

I'm not drowning

Congratulations my friend
As everything is empty
I'm screaming
No one is listening
Who's the captain she says
Who's the brave one

3 steps walking on water
To drowning

Some sort of secret

I bandaged my eyes
I cut a heart out
I handed it over
To find it on the floor

The messages punched and deleted

like a time card
Empty
Figuratively speaking

Detriment (1)

Scattered on a cold floor
Suffer chained to a concrete stone
She holds him under the water
Watches him drowned

As I'm left here alone on the bed
I can bring you home from the dead

Wake up
Walk
Like you never fell
The flies gather
Your an easy sell

Left to your own inadequacy
When you can remain whole