Post War

I flip through songs like a deck of cards
Trying to find something to write
I lie here now on my bedroom floor
Eyes piercing the ceiling

There's no use
I can't retrieve you
I can't forget you either

Every song hides your smile
Every conversation sheds your light
I look back to see if your their and
Nothing

Time

There's no rainbow here
Under falling rain I bow
Finger tips running under
Demi gods

I can't quite reach you -
Thunder claims shaken lips
Nothing to say
Wars lost and wage -
One stands in the middle

I try to brave a smile
As the black crow circles her body
Waiting for the kill

Windshield holds no notes
She drives home alone
Chasing after butter flies
Love is fleeting under empty skie
An orphan .

Lockets

I hit my veins again
Knowing tomorrow I'll wake up with the same head aches
It's a redeeming addiction
One to kill me
No fancy words to jot down
Just a thousand miles of secrets
And the way you looked at me

Your the heart shaped locket
Thrown in a lingerie drawer
Picture cut
Hoping you hold the other half
Of the I love
You

I try I promise I tried
You told me to forget you

But you are
My I love you

The End

The drive is dark
Haunted by old ghost and eyes looking back

its midnight
The head lights guide my way home
I'm lost in your eyes
Pounding the back of my memory
Driving - my heart

There's nothing I can do about good byes
I sing out of tune to the radio
And love you every day all over again -

Deeper

A pool of manequine stitched words slowly 

Fall 

Into an empty void 

You speak but I can't even get in 

How could you 

Tragic death 

Hung by a noose 

Can't figure it 

Love slits my wrist 

Blood beneath my veins 

It's dark 

Can you save me 

Compiling (1)

Complicate the masses
Point the finger my way
No roses in my garden
Failures tend to their wounds
I pick up the bandages

No one picking me - up
There's a trail of tears stitched to your fairy tales
Burned with the bridge we built

Tell me
The story again
I've got a brass knuckle heart
Please try your best to come right in
The music plays
Do you even know my name
Look up above
My iris hasn't changed

There's Peter
There's Paul

Wars wage on
My souls bare
As I lie here
In my pretty dress

I dare you
To remember
To move me
To break me

With
In

When

Congratulations on the third step
Walking on water is never easy
As I'm tied to this bed called destiny
A ship on fire floating in a deserted sea

As you build your empire
Seems to be the audience I'm dancing for
I'm choking with no land and no sight to your ocean

I'm not drowning

Congratulations my friend
As everything is empty
I'm screaming
No one is listening
Who's the captain she says
Who's the brave one

3 steps walking on water
To drowning

Some sort of secret

I bandaged my eyes
I cut a heart out
I handed it over
To find it on the floor

The messages punched and deleted

like a time card
Empty
Figuratively speaking

Detriment (1)

Scattered on a cold floor
Suffer chained to a concrete stone
She holds him under the water
Watches him drowned

As I'm left here alone on the bed
I can bring you home from the dead

Wake up
Walk
Like you never fell
The flies gather
Your an easy sell

Left to your own inadequacy
When you can remain whole

Contradiction

Hearts hang on old weatherd hooks
Unattended and alone
Sleeping to the noise of closing doors
And waking to the possibility of hope

12 months walking
12 lost
14 is the number of floors
10 is the number of my steps
Walking out your door

Instagram

It's arbitration time
Jury is out
It's hanging time
Just 365 days but who's the count
I read the lines
Nothing is what sits in perfect picture frames
I'm the stars you wished on
Never collected the grants

In the palm of my hands
She has a black iris
With out you she is dead

Veins run like paint
She sleeps alone
Empty picture frames

Sued

The buttons on my coat are worn
Thread stitch and lace panties
Lips red
Thrown across evening sunset
She's only there for a moment

Sitting in your chair
Afraid to move

Watching her rise and fall
With out your hands

I breathe you in
As you watch from afar
Your favorite sin

Until the dawn takes her again

Dragons

There's a bridge
Your on one side

I'm drowning in the other
I'm dressed in black
Ready for the funeral
I'm screaming
Your eyes looking ahead
Never turning back

I am dressed in night
I watch my light walk away
From me

A million keys breaking
I can't breathe
I sit here naked
I know you see me

Afraid to save me
Afraid of drowning

I am fighting
I am calling your name

You can hear me

Bottles At Sea

When the message came it was blank
Ink wet , smeared between lenses
Her lamp was on lips wet
She thought about it

He pulses under skin
Like heroin

Where You Are Is not my home

There's a stigmatism in the air
I can't quite see you clear
I'm aware you'll never read these lines
I hide behind
There's a coat in the closet
The smell of your shirt and a broken heart in my pocket
Where I saw you through

Now the Night is empty
And everything I see
I see clearly

And everything is nothing with out you
I hold on to my sanity
Keeps the calm from tumbling
But I still feel you

I grab your hand in my dream
I beg you to never let go
I wake up
Sleepy eyed and alone

The worst part is you'll never hear my song

13 th Floor

If you can hear me , speak to me . For your the only one who hears and I'm the only one who's listening .

Behind

Stories are courted in dialated iris
Secrets form in clusters beneath the surface
The light draws dim and fills with puddles ....

It's their in a corner
As it bleeds into everything
It's impossible to forget
Love
This love for you

Shatter

I couldn't recall the good bye 

Or the way you shut the door that night 

How the dominos fell one by one inside never to again be collected 

Just left a mess on the floor in the dark 

I couldn't recall any of it 

The only thing I remember was your light 

Entering the room that night . 

1000 Steps

I haven't forgotten the words of a hero 

That echo down my halls 

I can't find rest as I stare out my window 

Road is long 

Lost somewhere in your eyes 

Never finding home again 

As days turn into cluttered moths 

In a closet 

I sit in your shadow 

Broken heart .

Star necklace

Brush stroke smiles falling from Demons haunt my day 

A razor blade runs blank across my skin 

As I thought of him ... 

The way they walk from my arms into an empty crowd - 

Home is not a passing train , yet I'm left stranded at an old station 

Air full of scotch and last nights intentions 

No love - no star necklace as I fall into the sea , 

A boat so big - yet sails remain small ,

A heavy restitch - a thoughtless good bye 

No there isn't an answer is there ...

Waiting for the 7 o'clock train ... 

Luggage empty