Canary Yellow

canary yellow sun
Seen in dismal spots through skeleton walls
Sleeping outside in the  winter
Some how I lost the promise
that lives inside your warmth


Bridges carry me to smiles
crossing straight lines through a void and empty room
Nothing sinking in
Nothing giving in.


Pull me to the inside
Where I can show
the depth of the rainbow hiddin beneath your shadow


Canary yellow sun
shining on dry canvas
As you walk away


The cell is cold.
Carving out the bones.


Sleeping outside in the winter
Some how I lost the promise
that lives in your warmth .




my hands are tied
bleeding glass broken heart
spills.


I wanted to see it all.
Come crashing down.


Nothin is sinking in
Nothin giving in.


I'm losing my smile.
As I watch you walk away


   

Classical

I go through pages of lovers

I am left with the quotations and deleted line .

I erase moments that belong in needle

          thread bear with eyes watching misunderstood

You never read the story line
Under white linen dress innocence lies

I am butterfly
I am justice seeking the fight

The heroine of love long died

I'm bound in train tracks
Roped mistakes
Tamed by the light

Always missing the train
Loving the moment of life

I'm a message in a bottle
Out to sea
I'm a wall broken for you to see 

I'm the voice on the stage at night

To never be subtracted
Or defined

A definition in the key of the piano plays
Depending on the day

You can see me there on that page

Lions

Rose petals worn by perils of thorns

in leather bounding love

in prisons of lost languages and sentences

 

never coming and never amounting

to one result

 

If you could look me in the eye

feel my iris ignite

past the beauty of the deception of your lies

the ones the monsters have told you

the one beauty that  lies in front of you

 

She is screaming

but you can not hear her

 

she knows your name

she is bleeding for you

cut by your walls

 

She sleeps outside

No lullaby's

 

I am inside you looking out

I am your fingers reaching in

 

Waking up the lion

sleeping amongst the  pain.

 

Never grasping together to feel we are one result .................

Cuffed

Cuffed

 

I am the refuge

Feel me

Heroine in your veins pulsing

Quick fantasy poker

Left for Jokers

Call Me Queen

 

Time evaporates like spoiled milk

Expiration date has been met

 

Let me explain

How you can’t escape

I am the god

Come out and play.

 

Tell me darling

Your wrist slit

Veins spilled

 

You can’t run from me

I know every lie

The devil tells me

 

Thought you were friends

Satan tries to taunt me

 

Shackled and bonded to hate

Abusing me

I'm coming

 

 

You can’t break free

I warned you

 

10x7

Found some new material
Layin around in my pocket
Behind some lip gloss
Where my life is packed in that 10x7

you  smack me and smile

No lookin back-

I hide the tears behind yesterdays sunglasses….

It’s me and you kid
Alone again.

This pop star beauty


And no one’s looking back at me
Except this one page mirror glass
Broken in the back seat
As we drive in this get away car you wave good bye to me.

Have you got a clue?
I manage a smile
As I walk room to room
Of a broken home
I once new
I escape from the nursery we called our home




I fall to the floor
Where every tear echo’s
I gather myself together
And I leave the keys.

North

Packed my bags for the holiday

The winter is freezing my judgment
and the rain plays classical on purgatory standard

I breathe one more time
puffy red lips stained with yesterdays bad coffee
Adding some sugar
baking cakes...

The holocaust is over
I say its just the beginning of a rainy-day

I fold and meet her smile half way
a rainbow hiding in a black storm
simple and timeless

I'm traveling by train
no one will find me this time
I'm on my way

The crystal ball was clear
The ocean is empty
a result of laughter missing

Tell me
what does adding and subtracting equal out to be

Ill take my blanket this time

warm weather never fancied me anyway.

Coma

I found you today

The hiding spectacle of broken glass

a shrouded rainbow gone black

 

save me grace take my hand instead

the page is long gone and im dead

 

the challenge is- they left me with the pistol

and - bought bullets instead

go ahead turn the other way!

 

they said I enjoyed it any way

 

Its crack cocaine

its crack cocaine

 

they said I was on drugs

I wasn't

I was on rape

 

But he saved me

and then

they took him away

 

There is no damage in shame

just shame in your blame

 

with your dressed up picture frames

 

I ran for help

 

I ran for help

 

there was only one to save me

 

and you took him away 

Ex- traction

dilated heart tracking the congestion of time

lonely coffee bars can hear the music playing

haunting from the other side

lipstick stains napkins
softening the torture of good byes

the devil watches in compassion
I suffer ye the lies .

a crowd of inventors watch me from heavens sky
They wonder if we can give it one last try.

The phone in my pocket erasing memories as you type.

Dilated infraction , puzzling time.

funerals are promised
eyelash falls as I cry

Black and white balloons shell the future
as they sit in red attire.

I the canvas for the weak and blind
torn pages of open paint
with no picture and with out design.

 The lion hunts me
tells me to rest

but I cant tonight.

Holocaust

Theres a progression of angles and evil thundering in ashes above

The sun cant rise on carousel spinning in black and white Holocaust

the world is breaking iris closed tight

tears scream over the muted piano playing

I can't find the ocean to get me out of here

My ship is cast a shore

I am wilted with no rose

Tell me your secret

I have unveiled the curtain

Its my wonderland

no one else gets in

I sit in this symphony a perfect tragedy

I write

as the war wages on

I see you here

In color

Hearts winning

Devils falling

Fighting to set sail once again

Hide and Seek (1)

Alice finds me in the window (pain)
"The crowd is about to speak," she says
"You talk funny" , I say
"no one understands but you," she says...

The devil has a way of grinning that seems so beautiful.
draws you in and spits you out in the gutter

Alice.
Your dress is like sea foam clouds
funny how you always find the rabbit hole just in time

as we say amen.

will it be alright.

Notes

Your coal burning contrite in my lint pocket

There is something about a cloudy day

missing your sunny perfection

There's a state of assurance as the crowd closes in

The rickety trambone of the homeless man asks me for  change

I am reminded that you are their, waiting

I am here on this street freezing under this cover of winter

Waiting to be saved.

Clever magazine adds don't tell me a thing at midnight

as I change my jeans I am alone instead

 and the jazz music never changes

So I wait for the dawn, Ever coming

Ever promising.

But the message is blank and you left a scar on my leg.

Midnight

Rag doll sits in cinderella glass slipper
Reading the newspaper
ink jet print social communist

unraveling my day like cancer
Theres a drug in my vein
Vengence.
Im reading suicide letters in the obituaries wondering..


Is mine next.


Im pressed up against the glass wall.
On display. A humuliation. A gutter .
Used in black garter. gold kneck tie, spent .

All Alone. Cliche ,


I am reaching.. Screams echo, but nothing.
Walls come crashing down,
Cinderella you were never perfect.

Cinderella it's midnight and no one came
to save you.

Theres no one at your grave tonight.

Intermission (1)

Rust compiles into pages
Empty glasses write when I no longer can.

Alice grows.
Can no longer chase the rabbit, nor feel the cold wind blow.

Crawling fingerprints break , glass scrapes
I have made it around the bend.

A new story , I have found beyond the stack of cards
The cat sits in his tree .
His grin abounding

They thought I would drowned.
Upside down hallways
Braille letters left in stone.

Wax museums of hearts
Where mine has not been left.

The clock spins forward and back.. forward and back...

Shake hands with the devil, Thanks him for the glass of wine
and say good night.

I escape this time...

The coffin is open, The treasures are far beneath the ocean
The war commander sets sail....

Jesus in one hand , her cigar in the other....

  

Soldiers Will

Drive
the hour glass
Pounding white lines into tears
As he screams .. I whisper ...

God help me...

There's a soldier.

Lost inside me.

Buried under someones memories

I pull over

Black streams to puddles
beauty fades to your fingers

thrown in an ocean
One man's loss
One man's treasure

Blood was spilled for me..
He whispers back...

Half cocked smile
I get back in the car
He says nothing can take my place.

I whisper,
I feel you.

The phone rings...

My stomach
aches,

Voicemail.

Live by clarity.

He screams he never loved me...

God are you there?

He answers..

I love you....

The Crowd

Conquest makes a fisted presence
through broken bone.
I have all these promises
I fight them alone.

funny red lips
empty mirror
closed buttons.

A thousand prayers.

A voice in a thunder storm
where you swear no one knows your name.

And she is standing
against the train.
starving for the chance to start over again.

The beggar asks for her change
but what he does not realize
is that she is more the beggar than he.  

The Scars

There's a door
stained hinge
Pulling me close
How do I close this open window
to every finger print
that brought me too
this quicksand?
I pray in my car ,
no one sees me cry.
As I leave his straight jacket voice
does he hear my prayers.
I look in the mirror ,
I'm not where I once was.
I'm stronger
I'm weaker
Covered in strength and fear.
I fall asleep alone with my lullaby smiling back at me
Generations of mistakes
This door handle full of blood..
A wounded warrior who wouldn't quit.
But there is no one on the other side fighting to grab my finger tips...
She is screaming in the car..
The music plays loud..
How do I make scars laughter again?
How do I make the demons run away?
I pray for my Angels to protect them as they sleep the night away...
I slam the door..
I know God is here..
The radio says.. The lion roars...
Just tryin to erase the tears...
Rusted hinge..Is any one listening?
Do they understand?

Cards (1)

Cards..

Alice pick your part

I keep waiting....

If I could I would get an old GTO

re write every promise in smoke

Watch them fall like ashes one by one...



Scarlett letters bleed into empty promises

The Ace pretends to be a King

I fold........



One hand

I threw the dice

You left the table



The labyrinth we mold out of cards

Gambling dreams

Speaking truth as it leaves your mouth it burns....



How do we believe

When you raped me of everything I knew



I am the devil you never want to face eye to eye

I am the angel who protects under perfect wings

I am the soldier who won a thousand wars



Alice speaks

snow falls

She is laughing

She is swallowed alive



I write a script

I know every word by heart

Ill sing you to sleep

And poison your heart at the same time



An abortion of hope

Cut the heart into pieces

Love rots



My veins run cold

I ask Jesus for advice

He says..

Darling don't believe the lies



My world becomes small

when I thought we were big

I dance at this funeral

You say it's how it was supposed to be

Never felt that way .....when you were holding me.



Trade a secret with me

Ask your heart to be free

I read the Braille on the walls of your trench coat

that used to protect me

Whats it like to have a voice?



I am a Scarlett letter

I am the seine

in your shallow sea.



Never had a chance

Who can contain me?

Straight Jacket

Straight Jacket voice charms the mind
As I sit and stare at the ceiling tonight.

There is no going back this time.
Blame sits on your shelf
In a pornographic world full of hate
It's all a mistake
I was just the cloud of smoke you created

I lay here with a million winning tickets
and you have a million losing ends.

A spine cringes as you enter the room
you have your illusions
I have these gates.

So I toss my cigar in the ocean
Pull the anchor
It's the last you will see of this Commander any way.

Soul Mate

Twisted around metal conclusion
Ripping my bones from your pillow
hiding the pools of blood as I shed tears in the bathtub

hollow drain makes for eyes
I feel the cold inside
Waiting for someone to save me tonight

I see beauty in a picture frame
there never mine.

I reach for your fingers
but your to far away.

I crawl in the dark
searching for the heart
but its never there...

I whisper in the rain
I hear nothing
I wait for the story -

Of souls touching.

Instead...

I hear sirens,

He says, " She isn't breathing."

I say, " Maybe she is....
 

Transformed

The love affair begun
When I was salvaged from death
And He said,

I Am.

I was traded on the black market
lied to and told I was worth the weight
of fools gold.
My bones were trampled down to the soul.

But then from the grave He came
I wear his love on  patches, stitched on my heart

I will sing his anthem
There is nothing in this world that can keep me from the truth


I have a love affair with my Jesus.

If you need to be rescued
all you need is salvation.