It’s Friday night at 5:22 p.m. I have a story . I promised I would I’m on my lunch break at work , hopefully this comes out as wise and as insightful as it’s meant too .
God teaches me something different in every season . This past year I couldn’t understand what he was trying to teach me and honestly it made me lose my faith ….. a little .
You see me and Jesus are pretty tight . I have many gifts from the bible ( gift of wisdom , discernment ) are my most prominent gifts . So God is always talking to me . But at some point last year he seemed to go silent . I started to wonder if I failed , or if he completely stopped loving me . I was worried even that I had lost my salvation !!!! Where was he ?
I was very successful at my job , made great money traveled. I prayed every day read my bible . Life was great until it wasn’t .
One day I began to lose everything . Little by little . My income, my health , my daughter’s health ( huge accident ) my job I worked so hard for many years .
All slipping away . I would pray day and night and nothing . I begged and pleaded with God - nothing .
My entire life had begun to change everything that was plenty became a desert .
Now here comes the odd part but stay with me . I was driving home praying and crying and there in the sky no joke a huge whale right in front of me . A cloud in a perfect whale almost like it was painted . So , ok God the story of Jonah ? I thought I’m obedient ? I try to never sin !!! What are you telling me ?
In my mind I thought I could be mistaken . Was I ? Then a friend reached out to me ( Shannon) days later she told me that my life was like Jonah and the whale she sent me paragraphs .
I thought ok …. I’m listening . I continued to lose and lose . Eviction notices , not being able to buy food , more hospital visits . What’s the message ?!!!
I think I got it . Patience ! I don’t have any of that therefore I’m not to good with faith sometimes . I had it all . But what happens when it’s gone ? There’s no one to lean on ? Nothing .
I feel like I’m in a dark room and God has a big light shinning on me . Maybe he never left he was just saying trust me .
As I write this tears stream down my face . You know last year God told me who my husband is going to be he told me to do nothing . Wait on him .
Everything about this season has been so hard . The hardest I have ever been through . But I’m here God listening and waiting
Knowing I have to have faith that I will get through this season through the land of milk and honey .
